What do you do when you feel like there's nonthing left to live for except for one thing... but that one thing has absolutely no idea how you feel? When everything seems to come to an end, but an end that will last forever. If my tears had any power, I would cry forever. But i guess that was a choice.. I dont want to hear anything about anything... or any excuses.. It makes me wonder... Did it forget or did it have so much to lose.. If I could pull it back from where it's been, I would. Theres no way I could ever make it right. I'm beginning to give up.. and that's not my nature... no matter what, even when I was going through some of the most difficult times in my life, I obviously didnt give up because if I did, I wouldn't be here. But now, Im beginning to think I should really give up on it. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to wait for something that wont come to me. But on the other hand, It's worth waiting forever though. I would wait forever for it, but I can't. I wan to and I always will be waiting, but I can't keep crying over the same thing.. I've cried atleast every other day for over a year over the same thing. I love it with everything inside of me. I thought I was giving enough.. because 'enough' was everything I had. If i had more to give, Id jump at the chance... but it seems like it doesnt even want what I have to give. Id do nething. ANYTHING. Just to know there would be a chance of having it. I dont know what to do anymore. I've tried movingon before... but it didnt get me anywhere. I still thought about it every day. Every moment of the day, every second, no matter what I'm doing, i cant get it out of my head. I just wish I had one chance. It's something I want to be with for the rest of my life, but I guess he'll never know exactaly how I feel.