I miss hanging out with everyone. I feared that this would happen someday, and I know that it's partly my fault. I rely on so many people, and lately I feel like I don't see anyone. This week has been a stressful for me. It's been one painstaking event after another, and five pounds later, I'm still trying to put the pieces back together. I've dealt with everything I can deal with, and now I just need to fix the wounds inside of me, and hope that things can go back to normal. It's not about broken promises or hurt feelings, it's about me knowing that this is the end of all of this. I just want it to go away forever. I don't know what I would do if this happened again. I've forgiven, and now I just need to try to forget.