You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace. You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions. You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected. It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional. You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others. While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well. At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything. You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams. You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment. What Temperment Are You? Your Seduction Style: Au Natural You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you. What Kind of Seducer Are You? You Are External - Realist - Empowered You feel your life is controlled externally. You tend to attribute most things to luck or karma. You don't own your successes or your failures. You tend to take life as it comes, but you're also apt to feel helpless. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order. You realize that working the system does get you further. You know who to defer to and who to control. When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly. The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test You Are a Retrospective Soul The most misunderstood of all the soul signs. Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are. You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life. You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor. Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily. But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes. For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present. You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life. Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul What Kind of Soul Are You? Your Five Variable Love Profile Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered. The Five Variable Love Test

Spirits. The spirits that surround the earth areattracted to you, which is interesting sincethey don't really attach themselves to oneparticular person the way they do to you. Youare silent and knowledgeable, and perhaps knownby some as a strange and abstract person.Perhaps that's because you seek for the answersto your questions through the otherworld. Youcan be a voracious reader on the paranormal,but usually, some of the things they say aren'ttrue, and so you use your intuition. You arethe one many people come to you for advice, butyour answers may come out muddled since you tryto see things at different angles. Perhaps itis because of your spiritual understanding thatthe spirits are attracted to you. Congrats!

You will have a Content love. Notboring, but without fights and problems. Youwill just... be in love. Simple as that. As aperson, you're not the one who laughs highestor most often, nor the one in the dark cornercrying. You are the one who sits watchingeveryone else, often with a little smileplaying on your lips. To you, life is good andyou will get what you wish for. You will fallfor someone who is himself, and lets you beyou.

Your Personality Profile You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant. Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle. You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs. For you, comfort and calm are very important. You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection. You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong. The World's Shortest Personality Test Sure, why not... You're an Expert Kisser You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable What Kind of Kisser Are You? That's pretty good when you've only kissed one person... Told you guys I was a genius. People see happiness in your eyes! You are mostlikely a really awesome person who trys toenjoy life. You can usually see the good in anysituation or person. You bring joy wherever yougo in life and probably have a really good setof friends. But sometimes you may strive toohard to be happy and may try to fool yourselfand others. In this case, it's not good to holdin your feelings, and you should try to findsomeone to talk to about what's bothering youinstead of covering it up. But, all in all youusually get over these situations quickly andcan continue living life to its fullest! Goyou! ^_^ ... You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. How Boyish or Girlish Are You? How You Are In Love You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. How Are You In Love? Renme. Blood-stained white roses.Thorns of torture. You are deadliest of all.

I got a laptop! Yeah.... And I have lots of new chars, and a reason to play An...and I really want to play An right now...meh... New painting series coming up... The Voodoo series. Voodoo is one of said new chars. So far the series consists of seven images: Lantern in the Dark, Candlelight Vigil, Malice Doll, That Voodoo That You Do, Under the Blood Moon, Spellbound and Southern Hospitality. Stuff...it'll be fun.

I was playing on Gaia earlier when I came across an interesting thread, childhood fears; just thought I'd write about fears. When I was a kid I was scared to death of the Crypt Keeper. I have always been and still am afraid of deep water and drowning, which was justified when I nearly drowned when I was eleven, I'm also afraid of water that I can't see through, I'm afraid of what might be in it. I'm afraid of dolls, wax figures, spiders and bugs, though I used to go catch them for fun, go figure, closed spaces, long dark hallways, especially with flickering lights, elevators, dead people, something grabbing my ankles, stair wells and I can't sleep without my curtains closed, at least on the window facing the woods. Oh! And mirrors in a dark room... I have a lot of fears...

You need security.There have been many changes in your life andyou have had to live in an unstableenvironment. This has lead you to be suspiciousand always on guard. Your mind has a hard time unwinding and this could lead to you havingsleeping problems, since you think too much.People are a category you don't give much trustto, and find yourself to be a better secretkeeper than they could ever be. Because in yourchanging world you have learned that you onlyhave yourself at all times. What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics] brought to you by Quizilla Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with avariety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)As a person, you think life is just plainpainful, horrible and everything else you don'tlike. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,why are they so happy anyway? You are depressedand perhaps utterly alone and live life rathermonotone. You feel there is no reason to reallybe here and feel helpless. What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED brought to you by Quizilla

Hang on a sec! You're not an angel! You're agoddess! Always the leader in your group offriends you are the one to go to in a crisis,your advice is valuable if you give it out,which is only if you feel people deserve it. Goyou! Which astounding angel are you? (awe-inspiring pics!) brought to you by Quizilla

Your Element Is Water A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful. What's Your Element? Well actually...I tend to piss people of with my "going with the flow"... Your Seduction Style: The Charmer You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them! What Is Your Seduction Style? So -that's- where Orry gets it from. Bua hah hah! -cough, smile-

ALABAMA: Yes, we have electricity. ALASKA: 11,623 eskimos can't be wrong. ARIZONA: But it's a dry heat. ARKANSAS: Litterasy ain't everything. CALIFORNIA: Our women have more plastic than your Honda. COLORADO: If you don't ski, don't bother. CONNECTICUT: Like Massachusetts, only the Kennedys don't own it yet. DELAWARE: We really do like the chemicals in our water. FLORIDA: Ask us about our Grandkids. GEORGIA: We put the fun in fundamentalist extremism. HAWAII: Haka tiki mou sha'ami leeki toru. (Death to mainland scum, but leave your money.) IDAHO: More than just potatoes .. well okay, we're not, but the potatoes are real good. ILLINOIS: Please don't pronounce the 's'. INDIANA: 2 billion years tidal wave free. IOWA: We do amazing things with corn. KANSAS: First of the rectangle states. KENTUCKY: Five million people, fifteen last names. LOUISIANA: We're not all drunk Cajun wackos, but that's our tourism campaign. MAINE: We're really cold but we have cheap lobster. MARYLAND: If you can dream it, we can tax it. MASSACHUSETTS: Our taxes are lower than Sweden's (for most tax brackets) MICHIGAN: First line of defence from the Canadians. MINNESOTA: 10,000 lakes and 10,000,000 mosquitos. MISSISSIPPI: Come feel better about your own state. MISSOURI: Your federal flood relief tax dollars at work. MONTANA: Land of the big sky, the unabomber, right-wing crazies, and very little else. NEBRASKA: Ask about our state motto contest. NEVADA: Whores and poker. NEW HAMPSHIRE: Go away and leave us alone. NEW JERSEY: You want a #^$@&$ motto? I got your %#$^@ motto right here! NEW MEXICO: Lizards make excellent pets. NEW YORK: You have the right to remain silent, you have the right to an attorney. NORTH CAROLINA: Tobacco is a vegetable. NORTH DAKOTA: We really are one of the fifty states. OHIO: At least we're not Michigan. OKLAHOMA: Like the play, only no singing. OREGON: Spotted owl .. it's what's for dinner. PENNSYLVANIA: Cook with coal. RHODE ISLAND: We're not really an island. SOUTH CAROLINA: Remember the cival war? We didn't actually surrender. SOUTH DAKOTA: Closer than North Dakota. TENNESSEE: The educashun state. TEXAS: Si, hablo Inglis (Yes, I speak English.) UTAH: Our Jesus is better than your Jesus. VERMONT: Yep. VIRGINIA: Who says government stiffs and slackjaw yokels don't mix? WASHINGTON: Help! We're overrun by nerds and slackers! WASHINGTON DC: Hey - wanna be mayor? WEST VIRGINIA: One big happy family .. really. WISCONSIN: Come cut the cheese. WYOMING: Where men are men .. and the sheep are scared!

Well ...I've finally been banned... Now, I wouldn't normally fall to this level...however, people need to understand... BTW, since I didn't say so before; this whole fiasco was born of the fact that VO got hold of my previous journal entry, and Tragic took offense. So, out of spite he threatened the management of the TdV with the ultimatum he issued earlier, threatening to simply reclaim the room instead of allowing for them to pay what was owed; not only that, but he and half of VO came to TdV to publicly blame me, and kicked me from VO when I went to try and talk to him like a civil adult...how mature is that? [Orchid]: (So ...who wants to tell me what the fuck is going on and how I am in anyway part of it?) [Tragic]: We...VampireOnline.net..will be taking this site home soon [Tragic]: Fucking thieves will be left desolate [SixArmedGoddess]: ((yeah, we're gonna trash all the rooms and start spawning mutated trout in the pool. they like the taste of tdvers, i hear. bottomfeeders and all.)) [Theatre des Vampires]: FarmerGeddon has entered at 1:28 [FarmerGeddon]: hey [Tragic]: I guarantee, u will b left home,ess [FarmerGeddon]: lol [Theatre des Vampires]: AsbestosEffigy has entered at 1:29 [FarmerGeddon]: me so sad [FarmerGeddon]: can I be a vampire [SixArmedGoddess]: lol [AsbestosEffigy]: hiya thieves [Tragic]: Orchid, were noted on yer dumbass live journal [Isara]: we can deal with it Trag [Isara]: ive already spoken with them [Isara]: please dont hate me for something Orchid did.. [Orchid]: Hn.. [SixArmedGoddess]: hey.. that's the orchid in vo, isn't it.. [Orchid]: That'd be me... [SixArmedGoddess]: let's see that page, orchid. [Tragic]: Orchid is a lil tramp that ought know her age [SixArmedGoddess]: and you dare show your face there? [Isara]: next time if you dont want a public spectacle.. make your journal entries private.. i wont have anyone coming down on me or Xan because of something a patron said.. [Orchid]: I'm a tramp now, eh? [Orchid]: Love the maturity... [SixArmedGoddess]: i guess you must be if trag sez you are. Once again I must illustrate my point...these people are ADULTS... One opinion, which doesn't name names or point fingers at anyone in particular can hardly justify the way I've been treated ...so here's your public spectacle...

Confessional --Me We have so many secrets; People lying; protect you from the truth. It’s only ever that what’s better; try to save you from yourself. But as it’s fading, no complaining rather tell you all I know, of all the things you never knew… This nearer death… confessional...

Something someone sent me... In the beginning was the Plan. And then came the Assumptions. And the Assumptions were without form. And the Plan was without substance. And darkness was upon the face of the Workers. And they spoke among themselves, saying, "It is a crock of shit, and it stinketh." And the Workers went unto their Supervisors and said, "It is a pail of dung, and none may abide the odor thereof." And the Supervisors went unto their Managers, saying, "It is a container of excrement, and it is very strong, such that none may abide it." And the Managers went unto their Directors, saying, "It is a vessel of fertilizer, and none may abide its strength." And the Directors spoke amongst themselves, saying to one another, "It contains that which aids plant growth, and it is very strong." And the Directors went unto the Vice Presidents, saying unto them, "It promotes growth, and it is very powerful." And the Vice Presidents went unto the President, saying unto him, "This new plan will actively promote the growth and vigor of the company, with powerful effects." And the President looked upon the Plan, and saw that it was good. And the Plan became Policy. This is how Shit Happens.

I've realized something. In most of my dreams someone dies ... everyone around me dies; or someone intends to kill me ... or both ... which brings me to this entry; the first time I remember having ever actually died in a dream ... I will make this short, because I have a headache. It was set back when everyone was fearful of witchcraft to a fault. I was a young woman; blonde hair cut in a bob; she was not me, but I was her ... Apparently, I was under the influence of another woman's "spell", if it even was that. This woman worked for my family; she was stout, young; she had long curly brown hair and struck me as mean-spirited but almost comical. Under her influence I murdered someone; so coldly murdered them. I knew them, though, I cannot remember now who they were ... my parents found out about her ... there was an argument ... she was shoved, falling atop myself who fell onto a table ...and I just laid there as she was pulled away ... sent away ... and for that brief moment I felt so relieved that it was finally over; I felt so secure ... Now, this was all in third person view, as my dreams often are. Then I saw the hatchet, a heard metal meet flesh, bone, and wood repeatedly ... I saw blood ... and in my subconcious audience ... I was so shocked ... it had been my "father", in the dream, who had killed me ... he was a maybe in his forties, balding ... very solemn, but not sad in the least for what he was doing ... I don't remember seeing my "mother" much ... but I do remember my "sister" ... a lovely little blonde six year old; sitting quietly with her chin propped on her arms at a seperate table ...not old enough to understand what was happening ... as I was murdered ...executed ... you decide ...

Alright, I feel like writing. So I've decided that I am going to write out some of my other dreams that I just neglected to type out. -The Nas- I was a boy in this dream. I find that I am a boy in many of my dreams ... hrm ... Anyhow... I was perhaps 19? 18 maybe... somewhere around there... I wore black, an all black body suit ....it could have been leather, I'm not sure. My hair was black, streaked that caribbean blue I've become familiar with from a previous dream...(see Water,Weakness and Opera) In any case, I was flying, or more precisely, riding one of these ... things...similar to a manta ray. I've decided to call them the Nas. So I was riding this Nas and they were in a ...flock? ...They were in a group we'll say group... Myself and this Nas, btw, I had a deep respect and affection for the Nas, were on the right and in the middle row of the formation the group took. While many days we had important things to accomplish, today we were just flying. I was a very ...aloof youth ... somewhat cold but nonetheless with the spirit of a guardian ... I was a guardian ...I was the chosen ... and upon returning to my home, I met with a younger boy, perhaps 10. I think, he may have been my younger brother; he had dark brown hair and was actually quite cute, you know, the kinda kid you just want to hug because their cute. He was so jealous that I was the only one who could ride the Nas, in fact, everyone in our ...erm ..village seemed amazed and jealous of the fact that it was I who could ride them... and I just stared at him as if to say, " Umm .. sorry? There's nothing I can do about it..." and then I walked off through the doorway to my right... and then I woke up. You can find a picture of the Nas here: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/13286063/ Sorry for the inconvenience, but I was unable to upload the image properly. That's all for now, I'll write up the next dream another night.

Holy shit ... How long has it been since I actually wrote a dream entry ...lesee... March ...ten whole months...Jeezus I'm such a friggin' slacker...Anyway! I don't wanna get distracted anymore ..so! Moving on. -Flowers- I was blonde in this dream and I was wearing a black dress; a very flowy type of dress. I'm in this gallery/museum type of place; I don't know how I got there. The first room was all black marble; the floor, the walls the ceiling, everything. In the center stood a coffin or more a pedastle, it too was black marble, but the glass top made it a coffin. Inside there was,what else but a corpse? That is what you put in coffins after all. It was the mummified corpse of a woman all surrounded by leaves and twigs and flowers, she even had these short sticks and dried flowers sticking out of her eye sockets, her mouth was gaping torribly as she stared blindly up at the ceiling. This made me uneasy, her form there in the coffin. I knew she created something; some form of purification system or something using flowers. I don't really know what it was but I remember looking at all these people, so excited about this woman and her system. It was like a cult. I moved on into the next room, away from her body because, as I said, it made me very uneasy. The next room was just as the last; black marble everywhere you could see. There were tables here, glass cases filled with various things, but I did not stop to look at these. Instead I moved to two men over in the far corner. Both were black, both reminding me of bouncers. They wore black suits, sunglasses, your basic goverment stereotype. I watched them a moment before looking to the far wall to see her portrait, the woman's portrait... she had brown hair and was quite pretty and I asked them, "That's her isn't it? Susan ... that's her name...isn't it?" And I smirked. They just looked at me as if they weren't sure I was to be trusted, as though I were some danger, that I might do them or their precious Susan harm... I admit... I was very interested in this woman and her ...system... it did not bode well, didn't sit right with me. But I was ...smug... I knew ...if it came to it... I would step in ... and end this ... but I wanted to observe ... And then my alarm clock went off ...-sigh-

Gold - > Gold eh? You're strong willed that's forsure. And you're quite distant. In youropinion people are worthless. You're kind andgentle inside. But because of your defensesand tragic home-life that you don't tellanybody, most people don't see it. You're darksometimes and you're very creative. You're anatural born writer. Try to tell somebodyabout your inner pain - it's eating away atyour soul. What Color Are Your Anime Eyes? brought to you by Quizilla Your anime hair color is blue. What is your anime hair color? brought to you by Quizilla

Why are people so difficult? Why does no one have patience? And why do so many people take everything to heart? Now, when I say, to your face that I don't like you, only on those grounds should you think I don't like you; until then, I -don't- not fucking like you! Jeezus I have fucking things to do, I multi-task quite a bit and a lot of people want my fucking attention. I -try- to get to you all but I just -can't-, so when I get there, I get there. Well, now that I got that out, you'll notice there's a new color scheme, something I've been meaning to do for quite some time. Yes, it is another Orry inspired color scheme. Why? Because I love Orry, that's why ... A thought: I think what I fear the most is that, no matter how much I need you, no matter how much I need them, none of you need me at all; that in the end, I'm entirely expendable and replacable. In the end, I don't matter, I've done nothing, mean nothing ... that scares me .. -Orchid Crusion

Your aura shines Orange! What Color Is Your Aura? brought to you by Quizilla

Well as we all know I love taking quizzes ... it's also true I like to put myself in all the different personas of my characters and take the quizzes to see what they would get .. so .. I'm gonna post some Orry results tonight .. because .. I love Orry .. One shout out before I shut up. Happy Birthday, Julie! .. Ok .. I'm done .. Your eyes should be gray.. the same color you seethe world. You have faced many sorrows andlosses, but yet its starting to get to you.You're depressed and lonely, so maybe it mightbe time to go and find someone to talk to. What Color Eyes Should You Have? ( With Anime Pictures ^-^ ) brought to you by Quizilla This is a definite Orry. (By the way if you wanted to know, I got red, but it doesn't describe me at all .. ) You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure whatthat can always mean, because it can be definedin many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls werethe spirits of passed away people who areneither in heaven nor hell. They walk theearth, brooding mysteriously, always appearingwhen you expect it least. So hence, if you havea Lost Soul, then you are probably veryinsecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dontknow your place. You seemingly dont have aplace in society or an interest. You are a verycapricious person, and are confused andfrustrated about where you belong. You cravefor the sense and feeling of home-but have notobtained it yet. What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures! brought to you by Quizilla what's your cowboy bebop theme song? You are mysterious love. You want things to be abit deeper, a bit more emotional. You want toexplore, to try more things. You don't want tosettle for just one good thing. Your love ismixed messages. What kind of love are you? brought to you by Quizilla Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh. Now tell me that doesn't sound like Orry ... It just happens to fall on the period in which his birthday falls. Likewise, he is a pisces. How funny, it suits him so well and to think I chose his birthday at random. A thought: I know, that in the end I'll still be standing here on the edge. Alone. All I'll be left with are the fragments of a broken past, memories. I'll be grasping at straws and everything will slip through my fingers as I try to re-build. A breeze, everything comes crashing down ... I know that everytime I fall, I'll stand up again. When I'm bleeding, dying .. I'll drag myself to my feet and keep going, because .. that's all I know how to do ... Every time .. I'll save you ... Every time, I'll sacrifice my everything for you... and at the end .. all I have are the fragments...It's one of those things you accept or you don't, but accepting it makes your life a whole lot easier. And I'm still standing here ... at the edge of everything, pain, love, madness ...yeah .. I'm still standing ...Save me.