"Nanette Himalfarbb" wow, that's got to be the craziest name I've ever heard. anywayssss, ugh, I don't know what to do anymore, Taylor, Breezi, and I have gotten into so many fights the last two weeks, this is sooo bogus, all we do is fight, and it's because it seems like Taylor and Breezi don't even know I exsist anymore. gharr. and everytime I'm mad at them, they act like nothing's wrong at all, and that pisses me off even more. you know, it's always TAYLOR AND BREEZI, no "Taylor, Alyssa AND Breezi." anymore, no "Taylor and Alyssa" anymore, and there's no "Breezi and Alyssa" anymore. I hate that. I wish things could just be NORMAL again. then to add to all of THAT^^ my dad thinks I have a crappy attitude all the time, and he also thinks I'm being lazy and not even trying to do anything. wich is BULL because I do EVERYTHING I'm supposed to. the only thing I haven't been doing is my homework (I've be doing some of it, but some of it is hard for me, and no one takes the time to help me with it, not even when I ASK for help) everyone in my family is too caught up in their own personaly lives, wich don't include their daughter, to realize anything's going on with me, the only thing they realize/see are the bad things. I could fall off the planet and no one would notice I was missing. Well, "good news" I'm not moving to Vegas for another 3 weeks. wich kind of pisses me off, because I can't wait to get out of this shit hole, there's alot of things here that I would rather forget about. When I leave here, I'm not even going to take a second look back. I don't even care anymore. And I've decided that I really need to get a counselor or something, becuase I cannot keep going on like this, it's pathetic that the only thing I can vent to is a fucking online diary. =/ I've also had serious thoughts of cutting again lately, I don't want to get into that again, It got me no where but a ride to the psych ward last time, I don't see how it'll get me any farther this time. I had to litterally EAT tylenol pm so I would get to sleep before I had the chance to pick up that blade. sdklfjl GHAR! fuck. I've done enough ranting for one day. Alyssa ♥