shit. i set out to type a depressing blog on how much i miss katti and then "there's no 'i' in team" started playing. don't you hate when you hear that perfect song at that perfect time, and every line hits you perfectly? well, dear katti:

Well I can't regret, can't you just forget it? I started something I couldn't finish. If we go down, we go down together. Best friends means... well best friends means... I've got a $20 bill that says you're up late night starting fist fights versus fences in your backyard. Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor, soaking in sympathy from friends who never loved you nearly HALF as much as me. Broken down in bars and bathrooms. All I did was what I had to. Don't believe me when I tell you: "it's just what anyone would do" TAKE THE TIME TO TALK ABOUT IT Think a lot and live without it Don't believe me when I tell you "it's something unforgivable" Well I can't regret, can't you just forget it? I started something I couldn't finish. If we go down, we go down together. Best friends means... well best friends means... And you never knew, well i never told you, Everything I know about breaking hearts... I learned from you, it's true. I've never done it with the style and grace you have, But I've made long term plans based on these mistakes. Is this what you call tact? I swear you're as subtleasaBRICKinthesmallofmyback, so let's end this call, and end this conversation there's nothing worse...that's right he said it. I swear, you have no idea The jealousy that became me thinking that you always had it way too easy Best friends means I pulled the trigger; Best friends means you get what you deserve. BEST FRIEND THINKS I PULLED THE TRIGGER BEST FRIEND THINKS YOU GET WHAT YOU DESERVE

i fucked up. i was stupid. i don't know what to do about it now. all that shit doesn't even matter anymore and i'm sick of playing the whole thing out in my head over and over again. 'best friend thinks i pulled the trigger' idk why, but that line gets to me. [i'll have taking back sunday say the words i can't]