this is my second entry of the day. pft. um. things fall apart really fast, and its weird. she said hi to me when i was at practice today. she walked into the room and just said "hi hannah!" :|. i gave her a half-ass wave and went back to my papers. there were so many things i would've LOVED to say to her at that moment. right now i just want to go find him and hug him. it's only been one fucking day and it's killing me. today i realized how much little things remind me of him. THE PAINT ON MY WALLS REMINDS ME OF HIM. it's so fckng funny how i spent all that time complaining about katti, when i didn't even see what i had gotten in exchange for her. i was about to say that he was a better friend to me than she ever had been, but that'd be a lie. i miss her. i miss him. and i'm just waiting for the world to make sense to me again.