it took so much out of me not to cry today. so fucking much. he was my best friend. he filled that little void that katy left in me, and now he won't even speak to me... all because of that bitch. fuck you, megan. fuck you. he walked in and didn't say a thing to me, didn't look at me... but he went up and hugged her and then sat next to her. itkilledmetowatchthat. I'VE SEEN MORE SPINE IN JELLYFISH. I'VE SEEN MORE GUTS IN 11-YEAR-OLD KIDS. HAVE ANOTHER DRINK &DRIVE YOURSELF HOME. I HOPE THERE'S ICE ON ALL THE ROADS. YOU CAN THINK OF ME WHEN YOU FORGET YOUR SEATBEALT. &AGAIN WHEN YOUR HEAD GOES THROUGH THE WINDSHIELD. YOU LEFT THE FRAYS FROM THE TIES YOU SEVERED. BUT WHEN YOU SAY 'BEST FRIENDS' IT MEANS FRIENDS FOREVER. so what does best friends mean? i wish it meant a little more to you. dear ________ i don't know where you come off thinking that i was mad at YOU, when you're the one that said all that. you're the one who stormed away from ME. you're the one who tried so hard to avoid me and to ignore me. i don't know what you're trying to accomplish through all that, but if you're trying to hurt me then, it worked. so now what?