im stupid. so stupid. richards 31. but that doesnt even matter. i cant stop crying. will death make the tears stop? i dont know what to do. tell me what to do after work edit: i worked 8 and a half hours im tired. i had plans. had to break them. i almost cried. im a little sick. i swear richard is toying with me. im confused. im ambivalent. i dont know what to do