Writings my real journal<3

by itwasonlyakiss on January 20th 2005, 12:00AM

Feeling: upbeat

Okay this first one I wrote a long time ago. It's about a friend, but I see no reason to name names. And she's already read it. So don't worry, I'm not a bad friend.

I see the way you look at him, I know it's love. He calls me to give me an update, everyday... He called, not this time. The things he says, you've turned him around. You've hurt him. I hate you. You've hurt a man. I love you,idolize you. A man, A boy, A guy, The power source, Our world's sex lead. You've defied my theory, boys do cry. Why can't I make them?

Alright. I don't feel like typing all the stupid little things I've written. So the next one is to my boyfriend last year of nine months.
Ps-Sometimes I write really weird, strange kind of poetry. It's what I write though, so don't tell me I'm wrong. Thanks.

How come I'm never satisfied? I said I wasn't happy enough with you, well guess what? I'm not happy enough without you, either. Memories of you tie up my thoughts, but I don't want you anymore.
Why can't I make concious decisions,
have a mind one hundred percent made up?
I know I don't want you.
So,
these images
blur my sight?
You,
disable my comprehension.

So probably some of what I write doesn't make sense unless you're me. If it does, then I am very sorry you have to feel the pain and confusion like I do. I'm sure if you are a teenage girl then you can relate.
This one is me being pissed off at someone for calling me fake and my friend a poser in the same time period. It was like...August.

Sometimes I think of how I used to be a "loser"
And I think of how I
tried so hard.
Now I don't know what I "am"

Labels.

And frankly I don't care.
Wait.
Yes,
I do.
Teenage minds
not
made
up.
Confusion.

Okay that's all for this entry. Next entry shall be my good ones. I'm about to go start another one. I don't like having too much in one though. It detracts people from reading it.
Have a good day!
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