I have been venting off a loadf of steam in this thing maybe it cause I know if I tell these people direct, then i screw up what i am trying to say, Theyll "burn" me on it and ill be the scapegoat again. I understand a little bit more why peoplle want to kill themselves everyday, by sucide if they can't bare to do it to others, and War if they can. I don't wanna kill myself, never will. But I am in love with war. I want to be a hero. It is a proven fact that Heros have a higher death rate. I want to be rememebered. Even if by one person. As fearless, As strong, People remember first impressions, and last glances. I want my last glance to be an honorable one. I delve deeper and feel a bitter cold. I go forward, till I meet it again. Once I am in to this snow, I will be warm again. Until the next avalanche.