Sorry that i haven't been writing or responing much I have been kind of busy/not in the mood, got my permit:) So I can drive and destroy larger vechicles. My birthday passed bout a week ago, everyone asks me if I feel any different the answer is no. Age has little to do with awareness, or state of mind. Sure a sixty Year old feels different from and average 6 year old, but you know what I mean. I keeep looking past at past actions conversations, and thoughts, and realize that I have always been quite naive. This process I believe will countine like it has with most everyone else. Sorta like the feeling that I want to burn all my pictures that I am in glasses for.Not to mention my "closeness" to those of a young age makes me realize how stupid I must have been. Also, rejected by a place I worked at last year, bit of a distaste between management and I. But you still think they would take experienced people before hiring new ones. BTW the new ones are mostly the daugther's friends and other younger family members. So now I have applied for a job cleaning up landscaping at a theme park near here, wish me luck. Trying to look up stuff on body language to tell weather I embrass this girl I know or if she wasts me/or she to aplogize for a exchange of words I wish had never happened, there are some entries bout it most private from paranoia. Also, to see if this one girl is interested in me, yes I know body language makes mistakes and even if she was, I would be a bit embrassed having another person shuttle us around.... Yea lot for one entry but I haven't been writing... Be catching up on comments. bye ------------- Time of no shadows, Gotta love the weather.