i knew there was something important i had to document...it must of slipped my mind. well outside looks distgusting...wheres the sun? where did it go? but its ok, i just have to hang in there...because i will be warm again and the sun will once again melt away my darkest depression. because im going to texas, arizona, and mexico in approx. 2 weeks if i remember correctly. are u jealous...cuz u should be! mmmmmmm sun shine, lollipops, and rainbows. so i dont know wut to do about this friend of mine...can i even call you a friend? do u remember i exist? i just dont know wut to do,because i want to talk to you and i want to hang out but im scared to even call you, afraid taht i'll catch you on a bad day or that i'll say something wrong. i just want to know that someone still knows me. ::it doesnt make sense that im living for something i cant even define::