Today is my daughters 3rd birthday. When I started this blog, I just found out I was pregnant with her. (then I deleted almost every entry) She's the sweetest, craziest, funniest little girl. So much attitude in a 35 lb package. A mini version of myself (i dont know if thats good or bad, time will tell.) She's awesome, and I love her more than myself. Happy Birthday chicken nugget, momma loves you!

A couple days ago, my hubs saw me reading my OLD blog. I was logged into this acct, but I was still mindfucking myself with the old one. Welllllll.. he got all weird about it. Like - i wasnt supposed to have a life or feelings or date before I met him. So now this blog is set to friends only until he forgets and moves on. Hes not harping on it, or being mean. But he keeps making weird comments. Whatev man. I had a lot of fun times before I met you .. that blog reminds me of so many good, bad, wonderful, crazy, insane memories. I deleted A LOT of entries - and now I wish I didnt. But .. maybe in hindsight it was for the best because he cant read them. lol.

So a couple months ago, I started getting a weird, dull, achey pain in the middle of my back, right side, next to my spine. I brushed it off, even made jokes about spine cancer. (because cancer is just fucking hilarious. :) .. ANYWAY. It comes and goes now - and I only really notice it if I sit weird and I lean on something, or if someone touches it. Yesterday I was playing with the girls .. giving them flying rides on my legs, flipping them over, etc. Well I was laying on my stomach, and my girls were taking turns walking on my back. My 3 y/o fell .. and my 5 y/o got a kick out of this. So the 5 y/o decided to fucking CANNONBALL onto my back. all 45 lbs of her, directly onto the part of my back/spine that hurts. Immediately I couldnt breathe, my back completely froze, I just layed there in shock and pain. Finally (after keeping the girls off me) I was able to get up and go sit down. I let it go, and throughout the night it got worse. It kept cramping and spasming. I had to go to walmart to get gifts - and almost cried because they locked the doors on the side I was parked on - and I had to walk across and around the store to get to the car. My husband couldnt or wouldnt walk with me - which pissed me off. Finally got back here, and I just went and layed down in bed after taking 3 extra strength tylenol - THAT DIDNT HELP. I just stared at the ceiling with tears rolling out slowly. This hurts like hell. I fell asleep finally after I wedged a pillow under my back. This morning I'm so stiff, my back is all cramped up, and it hurts to do anything. Ughh. :(

I have an interview with an employment agency tomorrow. Fingers crossed that I get a job.