Im so damn frustrated by my whole situation anymore.

Somehow the closing paperwork got fucked up, so now we're waiting for a new close date. IF it even happens anymore. Its so confusing and legal and way over my head at this point.

Got into a huge damn argument with him on Saturday. ALL I wanted to do was watch HP and chill out for the day. I never, EVER ask for a movie day - especially here. The whole damn series was on TV for the weekend. NOPE, he decide to invite his friends over to drink, and bought booze.. and just UGH. No one even asked me what i wanted, if i cared, etc. They just did it. So I felt completely left out and like what I wanted didnt matter. So we argued. And he didnt get it. He never does. I hate when he argues with me here - because his whole position is to get as loud as possible, knowing I wont yell back. I did. I inadvertently got shitty with his mom because I was in the middle of this ongoing argument with him. After he SCREAMED at me on the porch - then followed me to yell at me some more. I left. Without saying a word. In the 7 years we've been together, ive never done that. I just couldnt do it anymore. I drove across the fucking city to go to my sisters.

Things are good with us now .. but his mom is being pissy. IDK what her deal is. I apologized yesterday, and I thought that was it. She can be as shitty as she wants to me - DONT be an asshole to my children. She was so damn rude today. I ignored it, offered to help numerous times, etc. If your mad at me, talk to me. Im an adult. We can figure shit out. This is ridiculous.

Went to a friends kids birthday party. Somehow got stupid drunk, and fell asleep in the back of our car. hahaha. And I somehow ripped off half my damn toenail.

Wtf.

I just need a break from this. I need my own house. I need my stuff. I want to be in charge of our lives again. This is too much. Watching my daughters' face sink because people yell or get shitty with them is not ok anymore. They need their life/stuff back.F