the mood is anxious because i am anxious..in a bad way... about schoole about my frends about my boyfreind, my life everything. School starts the 23rd and i hate skewl with a passion and i dont see the point of it because we dont use half the things we learn in skewl. Bah!!!! i hate school I also want to move far far away from here like to hildreth because i hate this shithole town that i am living in. yesterday i read listenasyoubleed xanga site at xanga.com and i like cryed. me and my b/f are trying to find out anything about her to see if she really did commit suicide or not. We think she did. Maybe im stupid for thinking that but who cares? My frend is having some serious issues and shes taken up pot as a way to deal with it all i wish she didnt do that shit she isnt even the same person when shes high and i wish she would stop and deal with it in reality like i know she can. Shes cutting pretty bad too and she needs to be sent away. her sister jus got sent away and really she was the one who really needed it she says that she wants someone to help and i jus dont know what to do. i want to tell someone and get her help but i dont know what to do and its like we cant even talk anymore. Shes not the same person anymore and i miss her. Me and my b/f and my best frend and her b/f were all gonna go camping but now they wont let her and it pisses me off because i wanted to go. i really did and now i dont think we cn also mom is gonna be gone on friday to go to grandisland and jus shit. ive already like spent my whole paycheck i really need to learn to budget money b/c i really suck at it and i have like no money now!! great!! i want to see my b/f today but i have to work and he is busy so i guess i will jus forget about it!