So basicaslly I am so confused I had the biggest crush on this one guy but like he kept leading me on and finally told me he couldnt be with me because he has a child and wants a chance to have a family but I think its just another one of his lame excuses like I believe him and what not but like he said he liked me then like idk what happened :( but he broke my heart!
Then I still really like my ex boyfriend I was with for a good 3 months but then again so does two of my other friends :( I want him back but I dont think I could have him back it upsets me cause I think the only thing I could do is hook up with him its not so bad but I would want to be with him not just hook up its hard to explain but someone in their right mind will understand me...
THEN... theres this other guy whom I got really close to and almost dated but then my mom had informed me that we were gonna move so I told him but guess what... I'm not moving after all its gay!!!! Soo he went with some other girl and I hate her shes a bitch!!! SHE KNEW I LIKED HIM A LOT!!!! :( like this kids all I think about its nutts!
IDK what to do right now like I know I'm young and shouldn't have to worry about this stuff but like I cant hlep but want to be with someone that I can fall in love with and have affection and cuddle with and what not u get what I mean! I dont get it like theres all these fat nasty girls getting sooo many guys yet all my friends say I'm skinny and pretty yet why cant I find a good guy I dont get very many guys and it upsets me like I want to fall in love I dont want nor do I need sex its just there... but I have to go get my other tattoo so I'll write back some other day Peace and Love♥