i feel horrible. i was talking to a friend who i was with sunday. "He took such good care of you that night. he was so worried about you. he saved your life and took care of you the entire night. it was so cute" blah blah blah. well, you know. i'm glad he did, and i would've done the same. but.. in the same breath she said .. "well, sometomes best friends make the best boyfriends" i dont want him to be my boyfriend. i do truely love him, but never as more than a best friend. i don't want to change that. i know it would. and even if it didn't -i couldn't ever see us as that