I'm not going to the principals ball. Every dress I tried on made me look like a cow. I don't want to give me or anyone else any more of a reason to see me as a dirty piece of ass. I stood in front of the mirror naked, and all I kept thinking was fuck, look at these legs. Look at these grossly obese legs. I could feed an entire african nation with the exess meat on one of my legs. I'm banting all of that gross shitty calorie infested food. Til i'm 125, at minimum, 130. I'm ruining myself, stupid fucking body. I am so gross. It is so gross.