These last two weeks have been utterly amazing. From the parents out of town, to Valentines day, to girls trip to Grand Forks, its been great.
I love it when people like to generalize life. In my own experience, the more you generalize, the more you realize how random life actually is, and the more its when you take risks and do something a little different, is when you find yourself truly happy. But thats just me generalizing.
I haven't been this happy since Switzerland. There is something new every day it seems, and my life never has a dull moment. And for once its purely real happiness, and the feeling is amazing.
And for once, there is a person, that knows what I feel, how I'm feeling, notices when Im sad, and wants to make me happy.
I'm not trying to be harsh, I'm just being me. And this is who I am, right now, and hopefully for a long time ahead. This is where my future should be heading, even if I need to get a B+ in all my maths (which is impossible) to get into Asper now, even if I'm so terrified that I'll never get into Asper that I usually end up in tears before and after every major test, because I'm so worried that I may never achieve my dreams, but my situation right now comforts me. With the exception of Asper, and my job at Perkins, everything is right in my life right now. I'm happy, content, and the feeling of a four letter word is in the air.
I should stop checking this... it hurts.
And so did you.
I don't think it should hurt. Your entry about younger girls dating older guys was wayyy off target, and utterly wrong.
I'm sorry if it hurt you, you should be over me by now, I certainly wasn't that special of a catch, I guess maybe yesterday it did hurt though. You'd think by now we could be friends, but no, I don't think that we're ready.