Bah! I wrote this once and it deleted. So everytime I write these words I get a little kinder, so be happy. So since you've got your last chance to declare to the world 'Fuck You' to Jenn, here's my last rebuttal. Why do you continue to do this? Why must you tarnish any positive feelings I have towards you. I really wanted to go back to our relationship in twenty years, and smile on what we had, but you are really making this hard for me. What were you honestly hoping to do by diss me, in a place where you know I will read it? Honestly, like is this your way of closure? I hope so, and I hope you get that closure soon, because I'm tired of dealing with any issues concerning you, I'm tired of wondering what you think, and how you continually diss who I am. I'm going to start this rather positively, and give my regards to you and whatever girl you end up with, because I know the thrill of having a crush, and then of finding that that person likes you back. It's a wonderful feeling, and I hope that you get that same wonderfulness out of it, and I hope that I don't create any baggage for you. I wish you all the luck in anything that you do, because I've reached the point where I'll only be mean where I have to, and in other regards I'm just wishing that you reach the point of closure AND happiness that I have. I really honestly do, I can't stress that enough. And now that I've been nice, I've got to throw my last little thoughts in, because as nice as I'm trying to start to be, I'm still me, and what you said was really really cruel. Let me broadcast to the word, so everybody doesn't think I'm a heartless girl, why I broke up with you while you were under the slight influence of alcohol. You don't treat me like crap, I don't care how much you've had to drink, you don't a)tell your girlfriend to fuck off b)grab her and force her to dance with you, holding her so hard that she's terrified of you, and that she can't get away from you. There is no excuse for that. I wanted to break up with you for the entire week before that, and was giving you one last chance, and buddy you blew it. And it was alot easier breaking up with you while you were drunk than when you weren't, and I wasn't angry cause otherwise I'd be a blubbering idiot. And you know all those things you said on the phone when you still wanted me back... those are the things you should have told me when we were going out. I never thought you loved me. Ever. And by the way, your friends all backed me up on breaking up with you. YOUR friend was encouraging me for a good part of it... if you can't even convince YOUR friend that you are a good boyfriend, and you can't convince your GIRLFRIEND that you are a good boyfriend, how can you tell yourself that. I'm sorry you are hurting, I really am. I never wanted to hurt you, but being in the relationship hurt me. To any females who read this... how would you like a boyfriend who told you almost every day that you were lame? Or a boyfriend that when you got into a fight with your friend, sided with your friend, and told you that you were being stupid, when you didn't even do anythign to cause the argument, you were just part of the aftermath. Huh? Why would I want to be in a relationship where i feel like crap all the time. I'm sorry I'm happy now, I'm sorry I'm the happiest I've ever been in my entire life. I'm sorry that I've made new friends, and I'm sorry that I've moved on, but please cease with the harsh and hurtful words that keep bringing me back to you. Please. How I'm self centered, I'm not sure, but You've taken this relationship and you've crossed the line of hurtful words in order to gain closure, you've reached the point of just being mean. If I was ever self centered it was when we were dating, but YOU were also just as self centered as I was, don't deny that. I wish you the best of luck with whomever you end up with. I hope we can look back in twenty years and think of the good times, and being high school sweethearts, not the bad bickering times. I hope you find a girl that treats you like a god, you deserve it. I hope you reach the point of happiness and closure and understanding, where you no longer think of me. I wish you the best of luck, honestly, I really do, and I hope that we can put all these hurtful words behind us. Please don't continue this conversation further. Right now, I'm extremely happy, happier than I probably should be but really really happy. Please don't ruin this for me, please don't say cruel things... it's not worth it. These are the Last words I’ll ever really get to say to you So listen very carefully to what I’m saying Life is more then just the games your playing -Last Words-Thousand Foot Krutch