I have no clue what to do!! I feel so alone, but I am not going to make this one of those whole my life sucks entry..I have many of those already! anyway I guess I pissed sophie off, but she told me that she wasn’t upset at school and then tiff comes and tells me that sophie is really pissed, about the note thing if she would have asked to see it I would have gave it to her but she never asked or even looked like she wanted to see it… and that she was talking about me almost the whole way home..i just don’t understand and now her sister is telling me that I need to shut the fuck up,,,I hardly talked at all today during class and now I guess she is mad because I was “ignoring” her….hell if I say something I get a problem and then if I don’t say anything at all there is an effing problem too! I just don’t understand I thought something way different but I was wrong I guess….just another bump that I need to get over I guess My Spanish teacher had a really good conversation with us today! it was really weird.. she opened up discussion about how stress and depression and eating disorders effect our lives..she asked why it seems to be more “socially” acceptable to be really thin and what not…she told us that she thinks that we have problems like what we have because we have not learned how do deal with our problems..we just go for the quick fix and call it good…and as she was sitting there talking about think I was like holy moly that’s exactly right..thats exactly what we do, that’s why we are soo stressed and have so many problems that we just say sorry and that’s it…it was crazy so I sat there for 40 minutes and thought about all of the people I fought with this year and well not only this year..i think I almost cried..in that effing desk knowing that I could have done soo much more that I actually did, knowing that I really could have saved myself and these people suffering and the pain, that I really am immature and that I really cannot handle what is thrown at me all the time..