I work overnights. 10pm to 6am. and its saturday morning and i cant sleep. I hate my life. News to everyone right? I want to be a kid. Fuck girls and not worry about their age. Smoke weed and do drugs and not worry about jail. I want everyone to know this yellow is me. Not pretty but not really ugly you just wouldnt do anything with it cuz you dont know what to do with it. So... i guess im going with this girl named melissa. but i dont know what is going on with us. She likes me alot. and i love having sex with her. but she wants more than just sex and im not sure that i do. I had my first cigarette today in the last week and it was so good. its not that im trying to quit its that i dont have 5 bucks to go buy some. sad i know im starting to realize that no one really understands me. and realizing that scares the shit out of me. however i do like jackie. small problem is she is 16 and that would be a criminal thing to take away her innocence. but i think it would be worth it.