I never update this thing ever. Well so since the last time I wrote, I have heard just about every rumor possible about Chris. He likes just about everyone ever, apparently. He's apparently not a virgin now, I don't really wanna know anything more about that. I got over liking him so easily it makes me question if I really liked him. I know I liked him, but I think this might have just been a rebound relationship. The only thing I can't let go of is just how fast everything changed. One day he was telling me how much he liked me and everything seemed so solid and then a couple days later it was completely gone. He's changed though, he drinks and smokes now, and he thinks he's so bad-ass for doing it. It's one thing do that stuff, but to find yourself superior for doing it, that's just stupid. Oklahoma is over and I miss it. I made good friends and I won't get to see them possibly ever again. I go inbetween wanting to try out for "Singing in the Rain" and not wanting to. If I do, I'll be with my friends again, I'll be in one of my favorite musicals, and will have something to fill the crannies of my life that lead to my empty feelings. But I have to do a dancing audition in addition to a singing one and I can't dance. Plus I don't have a song to sing and auditions finish on Sunday. I loaned Kyle my Rocky Horror DVD on like the 2nd and it's the 27th now. I know he'll never remember even though I've mentioned it a couple billion times. Part of me doesn't even really care if I get it back. It has bad associations with it now. I have grown a new obsession with "The Office." It is just so funny and interesting and I love the love situation with Jim and Pam. It is frustrating at the same time though. I have something else I could talk about, but I think it would be better to not. Good things could happen and I don't want to jinx it. If anything happens, I will surely try to post it on here though.