Dear Secret Heart I'm sitting here eating 'almond crush' pocky at Erik's house waiting for the right time to get in the hot tub. exciting, non? Oui. Most definitely. I really want Darla's outfit that she was wearing today. Her shoes are amazing. More like boots, though. They were black lined in fur. I love furry boots. I want some stockings too. They were the hottness. So, I've determined that Corey hates me when we're not in 4th period. It's like when we're not in the classroom, he wants nothing to do with me. And I definitely told him that I miss him texting me, and he said something to the affect of "You have to text me first to get a response." Now how dumb is that shit??? I know we don't go out or anything, but he can at least treat me like one of his guy friends. That remark really made me upset. Sad, I mean. It didn't make me angry. Heh. I'd text his ass right now, but he's at work and I can't bother him at work. Well, those weren't the best choice of words, but you know what I mean. Man, I love that boy. He's a little over 2 years older than me. Is that too old, do you think? Oh, well. If my predicitions are correct, he'll most likely be single by the end of the summer. Damn. I sure hope so. Ugh. He was talking to me during the awards assembly this morning and one girl was called and I believe her name is Jessica Wilcom... or something like that... but anyway, he was like "She's a hotty" and shit like that. And then he said "I have a snowball' chance in Hell with her." I was thinking 'Goddamnit, Corey. You have a girl sitting right fucking next to you who would take a fucking bullet for you, and you're talking about having a relationship with some girl who doesn't even like you anyway.' And to make matters worse, MY name is Jessica. So if the phonomenon ever happened that they do go out, then I have to listen to him talking about 'Man, I wish Jessica would fuck me'. *cries silently*