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I wrote this to my boyfriend today and I have no idea what he is going to say or do. Its either going to end really well or make him nervous and run... but either way.... I just need to let him know. And I hope it all turns out for the best. _______________________________________________ I have come to an epiphany while painting... that night we were talking about the cities we loved, and the places that we would love to live in... I said something stupid and rather selfish it was... "I don't know why, but a part of me is starting to love Richmond too...." and you said "Maybe I could with your help, I could learn to love Richmond too...." and it was soooo sweet of you and I can't believe I didn't realize that you said it till now... I'm actually quite mad at myself for not realizing you said that then. But at this moment now, I'm not afraid of letting you in, I'm not afraid of what may or may not happen. I'm just so happy and grateful to have found someone like you. And please don't be mad at me, but I was so worried about what could be, that I was over looking everything, but, not anymore. You have totally quelled all fears inside of me and given me sooo much more to look forward to. In the span of a few months there has been this dramatic change in me. I've never been able to just be out there, and be happy, but you've some how managed that before. Every day you amaze me and just keep me in awe about everything. You over look all the flaws I have seen in myself and I don't know how you do it... but... you're just... I don't even have the words to describe how amazing and beautiful you are. I don't want to scare you away when I say I love you. I'm so afraid that something is going to happen or someone better might come by and take you away, and I know that there are probably better people out there than me... but some how out of all of this... you chose me... and I feel soooo alive because of you. I feel so scared telling you how I feel because, well, A: I have never felt like this before about anyone, B: I don't want to scare you away by telling you how I feel, and C: I don't want to put any pressure on you. I've never been great at expressing emotion towards anyone and I have never been at the forefront of the line to fight for someone, but you make me feel that, and I know its safe to say that not matter what, I will always be by your side, no matter where you are in this world, my heart, body, mind, and soul are yours to keep. Again, if its a bit much, let me know... but I just felt like I had to tell you for some reason. But I just wanted to get this off my chest because I want you to know how amazing YOU are and how important YOU mean to me. Nothing and no one is going to change that, and nothing is going to stand in my way of caring about you, not distance, not time, nothing. Its just you and me Matteo. Love, 李翰昇 PS- I really would give anything in the world to see you right now, and to just hold you in my arms, even if it were for a moment. And I really hope this doesn't make you too uncomfortable, but if it does, talk to me, I've found that you're the easiest person to talk to out of everyone... even some people that I have known for years. And I hope that I can be that person for you, and so much more because you deserve the best person out there in this world. Goodnight my everything, my love, my Ritsuka, my Suai Ge. And pleasant dreams.... PPS-Yeah... I did actually force myself to punctuate this... as best as I could. *Qin Wen, Yong Bao*

I'm getting tired of you pushing me 'round Dragging me down Making a sound because you wanna I guess that's why I like messing with you Putting you through A lesson or two, because I'm gonna Before I go my own way I just gotta say Leave me alone Get out of my face I'm tired of love Feeling so misplaced Time for you to go 'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh Leave me alone This isn't gonna work Don't call me on the phone Because I'm all out of words I'll face the unknown Thinking about all the ways that I've grown Oh, Leave me alone There was the time I thought you were the one Having some fun Getting it done What an illusion 'Cause you were trying to take control of me That couldn't be, I need to be free of this confusion Don't give me a guilt trip, because I'm so over it Leave me alone Get out of my face I'm tired of love Feeling so misplaced Time for you to go 'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh Leave me alone This isn't gonna work Don't call me on the phone Because I'm all out of words I'll face the unknown Thinking about all the ways that I've grown Oh, leave me alone Don't turn around and don't look back I see right through all your selfless acts Oh Leave me alone Get out of my face I'm tired of love Feeling so misplaced Time for you to go 'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh Leave me alone This isn't gonna work Don't call me on the phone Because I'm all out of words I'll face the unknown Thinking about all the ways that I've grown Oh, leave me alone If you win your love I'll feel better on my own Leave me alone

I know this will not remain forever However it's beautiful Your eyes,hands and you warm smile They're my treasure It's hard to forget I wish there was a solution Don't spend your time in confusion I will turn back now and spread My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with My broken wings How far should i go drifting in the wind Higher and higher in the light My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with My broken wings How far should i go drifting in the wind Across the sky,just keep on flying keisoku no dekinai itami to keisoku no dekinai jikan no narega subete wo umete shimaou toshitemo soredemo watashi ni wa kanjirareru sora kara ochitekuru no wa sora kara ochitekuru no wa ame de wa nakute Did i ever chain you down to my heart 'Cause i was never afraid of you ? No,I couldn't hold you any longer Love is not a toy Let go of me now The time we spend is perpetual Our future is not real I'll leap into the air My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with My broken wings How far should i go drifting in the wind Higher and higher in the light My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with My broken wings How far should i go drifting in the wind Across the sky,just keep on flying sora kara ochitekuru no wa are wa ame de wa nakute

This is a roller coaster life this is, you know up and down, up and down. Damn. All well, still trying to find out who i am. Found out another teacher acctually cares about students. Eh, we will see how much happens from here on out tho. This depressional rut... is much deeper than the others have been. ALOT deeper. But i will find a way out because! I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG Kahshan. I WILL.

yeah hey i am back as fucking promised. of corse none of you would know then would you?

look DONT fUCKING LIE TO ME. I WILL FIND OUT! DONT MAKE PROMISES YOU CANT KEEP. DONT GIVE ME UR WORD IF IT HAS NO WORTH. I LOVED YOU BUT NOW. I REALISE I LOVED THE OLD YOU. BEFORE EVERYTHING CHANGED. AND THERE ISNT ANYTHING ANYONE CAN SO FOR YOU. PROVE TO ME WHY I SHOULD BEILIVE YOU EVERYTIME YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME. I AM WILLING TO GIVE UP THE REST OF MY LIFE FOR YOU BUT YOU..... YOU DONT GIVE A DAMN! DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND??????????? LET ME ANSWER FOR YOU NO YOU DONT. RIGHT GUY WRONG TIME.... IDK MAY BE ITS JUST ALL WRONG PERIOD WELL I AM THROUGH IF YOU WANT ME PROVE IT TO ME. OTHER WISE ITS OVER. I CANT BE WITH YOU OR NEAR YOU. I DONT WANT TO BE UR FRIEND. YOU CANT BE FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR. I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ASPHAULT FOR SHOWING ME THE WAY. AND ALICE FOR SUPPORTING ME. I LOVE YOU LIKE THE SISTER I NEVER HAD.

I spin this disk on my finger Reluctant to let go I was trying to runaway from my sorrow It seems the wall comes closer In the dresser of my dressing closet room door I feel so emoted, is it cause i've been demoted again? *SPIRALING! waiting to see LIGHT OF ME! hoping to breath Raptured in the lift of my blood I am drowning, the only one who is closet to me Please save me i am not this ready yet And i am not so devout to tis prep Pondering where i met you, i met you in my class I was hoping that this evil bliss could last But it didnt, To bad it didnt *SPIRALING! waiting to see LIGHT OF ME! hoping to breath Raptured in the lift of my blood ^These emotions start to run high on now With this sound i will start to cry Absolutly when one wants to die As you see, when you say, that i love you in every way I dont care, you get scared, then you run away Just run away.... *Spiraling just waiting to see The light of me, hoping to breath Rapturing the lift of my blood (crescendo) SMILING! I WALK AWAY FROM THIS A STRONGER MAN TO BE MISSED I WILL WALK, I WILL RUN I AM BETTER AT LAST, and i cant be fired for this, FOR THIS CAUSE I AM EMANCIPATED FROM... my love... (This is about me saying good bye to my ex-fiance and that i am finaly over you. I love you and everything but all the SHE HIT that we've been through, and everything i have done for you. Well it just went down the drain. I am better than this, and i have more things to do then just to cry about it. I am sick of waiting and i am not going to live forever.If i make it to 25 i will be lucky to have survied and you kno i will always love you. But the thing is THIS WAS YOUR LOSS AND YOUR MISTAKE. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO LET ME GO FREE. Thank you for pulling me in circles for months on end. For letting me see that your an ass. For wasting my time, love, life, and tears on you. For helping me to realise i can do better and you kno what. GOOD BYE, i walk out of this one alive. PS- All the times that we have been together as friends or lovers, was just spent in you saying things that werent true. If you love me you can try but other wise this is good bye.)

Back and forth up and down. He claims he still loves me, he claims that i am the only one meant for him... then how come we arent together? Irony

Bad day today, work was a killer... i had to wear a fucking mask all day and and act happy infront of the coustomers.you know. 4 bottles of asprin should do the trick of easing the pain. and i dont care anymore... yet again i am back to my old self. dark and dreary. not so much weak tho... odd how things can change in an instant. well what ever it goes the only thing is. there isnt time to look back now. there is no use for it. regret can bring nothing back. SCREAM AT ME ALL YOU WANT ABOUT HOW EMO I AM, IT JUST MAKES ME WANT TO NOT CUT MORE! PROMISES WiLL BE BROKEN THERE IS NO POINT IN KEEPING THEM. And like i care. No one can do shit about it. go to guidance i wont shead a word. i will lie my way out of it and nothing more to be told. i can act better than you all think. in this world acting is what every one relies on. go ahead take your time to blink. but in that instant i will dissapear.

The serpents hiss and a fouls call Screams unreaching and forbiden halls Relms that may not be entered Millions that lead to humanities fall The many creepers that follow This shell of mine so hollow Sabatosh and remorce Sentancing the issues i hide and swallow Many march onward toward the indifference I stay here and wander in the lonelyness Heart ach is just anothery way of torture The knives shoved in my back are useless *Take this off of me My mask that you all see Remove the light inside Take my life away Seek eternity and make me whole again Make me whole again* You know the lies that fall of of you A million times you never told the truth Passers by wave my way Thinking i have been subdued Return one day to me you see The eternity that fell on me Ravage in the evapouration Death is the one thing that i will forever be Ravage through my bones (x4) *Take this off of me My mask that you all see Remove the light inside Take away my life Seek eternity and make me whole again Make me whole again* Revise the draft of time Take what you want of mine and walk...off...this line........

"there is a poem carved into stone at a moutain temple. it is so easy to read because three letters are scrateched out... it read - you do not read loss... you feel it..." I feel that loss now. and i promise from this point on as this statement and anyone who reads this as my witness: The one that i loved will just be a past from now on. The love i had for him was lost. And the peices that are left of me and him will only be held in terms as a friend. That is all that is written. The emotions i will now hide forever in the hopes of one day we might be together again will be locked here. Here untill the day that we may be together again. Untill then let this be the one thing that keeps me going, and holds me behind.

Eternity -Salem Lee- Chapter One: The after math. The golden sun, The silver moon, The spot you shot today, A solar part, A lunar tear, The thoughts that fade away Adverting from his attention he realized it was late and time to drift into the realm of sleep. Ryan walked away and went up to his room, the fireplace was still lit and Chase still sat there in shock of what he heard. "I LOVE YOU" those words reverberated through his head like an explosion within. The luminosity of the light still beamed through the room despite the fact that the fire was perishing into the darkness leaving nothing but embers. There Chase lay from the previous night where he was "shot," still stunned from the words, and fast asleep. Ryan walked out of his room noticing the fire was out. He walked over and covered Chase up with a blanket woven out of satins and silks; it was thin but kept in the heat like and oven. He looked at the clock "2:13 hmm" he said as he sighed. Chase awoke and looked up at Ryan for a moment; just enough for a glimpse of his face, and then passed back into the dimension of slumber. But before he passed out he mumbled something "I love you too" Ryan smiled and picked Chase up and took him back into his room and situated him on his bed toward the heated corner of the room. "Still 3" Ryan spoke, he walked towards the window. Frost had collaborated on the glass panes of the old rustic casement, though old, it still did its job. It kept whatever temperature in and the other out. Ryan walked out of the plaster styled hall and into his bed room, and there lay Chase wide awake and watching the television, drinking his usual cup of tea before bed stirring away like there was nothing else to do. “Hey come look at this…” he stated in a sparked tone, “ there was an accident on route 88. Two tractors collided and killed a woman, cut he clear in two.” “That’s sad and repulsive Chase. Don’t you have anything better to do than mock the way people died? What if that was me? Would you be doing the same thing?” Ryan spoke with the intention of making a point. He limped a little as he walked way. “Ryan, are you all right?” Chase swiftly made his way towards Ryan maneuvering past the labyrinth of furniture they had acquired during the past year.

My ex: Tho he hurt me. I still love him. and i still want to be with him. And i know i wont ever get over him. Yes move on but never forget. And the thing is i dont want to move on. Sami: I like him ALOT! but i am afraid it wont work out and i am afraid i am going to hurt him. He seems like the greatest guy. Like HE ISNT LOOKING FOR SEX! and thats what i want. A relationship that isnt based on sex. And yeah i want to see if it would work out. But i am so afraid that my heart will still be lapsed on my ex. and i dont want that cause i dont want to hurt him. He is suck a sweet guy and just SOOOOOOOO OVERLY AWSOME. and yeah EX: He still likes me and now he is single. And after everything i have gone through i just dont kno. I want to move on but i dont at the same time. And he is still there in my heart. Sami: like i said i dont want to hurt him. And i really want to see. And if i do i dont want to hurt him, and thats the last thing i want to do to such a sweet guy. He is soooo Beautiful. No not cute, not hot, not hott, not i want that ass..., but Beautiful. I mean there is no other word for it. Because he is beautiful. AND he is into the same thing i am into. Music and all. He loves writing and i do too. I just dont kno. HELP SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME! I am so mad that i feal like this... i wana kno what to do... I love one and i really like the other... Tho i dont kno Sami that well. Sheesh am i gonna be hated.

Before when I was younger I needed you to stay alive And I wanted you at my side There were so many issues I had with you Like when you used to lie Or when I would cry You said you cared You lied you spared My life, of yours, You cleared the air I can breathe now with out you I can see now with out you I can look past my nose and say Everything was your fault And I can look back there with no regrets today *Today is a new day No more throwing my life away Seeing you kiss her in front of my eyes Made me realize That you were a love but I have to move on And my friends they all whispered Today is a new day No more throwing my life away And I can see the out side And no more putting from my line Because I don’t need you to live I gave you all I had to give* See there it is I have moved on You’re mad because you cant hold on I hope you see you did this to youself And I had nothing to do (say) with it And I wont die I wont even cry No I’m not gonna die! BECAUSE: *Chorus* See you were the first but not the only I can move on because you were wrong I have no regrets your fault will last for you But not for me, and I can walk past you And I can move faster, I can fly higher Your old desires (JUST FLEW OUT THOSE DOORS) YOU DITCHED ME ON DECEMBER EE THAT’S ONE IN CHINESE AND I GAVE IT TO YOU THAT TIME GOES ON MY DREAMS ROLL ON AND I WONT GIVE UP CAUSE YOU FUCKED IT UP! ~OH OH~ *Chorus* You did this to your self your fear Of loosing me and now I am gone you see To day is my day Today I do things my way!!!!!!!!! ____________________________________________ Yeah its about my ex-fiance fucking up, and how i can move on.i mean come on, he dumped me after 1year 3months and 29 days. and now he is sorry for it i guess. but in the end we will be there for eachother thick and thin. and mabe some day when he is ready for a real relationship then we will get back together.

Sweet Misery – Salem Lee Oh sweet misery The dear and heartfelt beloved The resentment of the line of fire Amiably is the sent of tears And passionately lies the woes Nothing can deny the infinite lies Beyond the grave in the time Take my soul and use it well My weakness in the fallen Ship wrecked by the ocean side. Noon tide reawakens me to bitter sweet misery The night life is the mornings after glow And then I I speak it well Here I dwell in the light of the moon light In the eternal sunshine After the falling sunrise Here it remains twilight Upon the ebony blue. Speak to me I am too weak to see The resenting love life And the fallen rainbows In the shattered flowers glow And upon the earth will see the tears I feel As if in the field of dreams I wield Your yerning heart set feel-ings Is brought to the healing And in the right time you will pass on And eventually move on. *Oh sweet misery I have found thee And woes the sweet misery in the castaway Bye the moon light Shunt about me is the heart nets And OH SWEET MISERY Is there a forgotten mind The forbidden soul And the tortured simile is the metaphor And the undying love Of mine………. Ponder this me divine right To be the damned sent child In the hearsay world Oh sweet misery I have found thee Hiding in the clouds Worry my time In the mess of things I have lost everything I have found. Stagger these pieces of me Shaken this eternal moon lit ground And beckon these into the star-shaped mound Reawakened the quivering is this the open tide Am I in the final battle Over the stunning starlit moonlight? *Oh sweet misery I have found thee And woes the sweet misery in the castaway Bye the moon light Shunt about me is the heart nets And OH SWEET MISERY Is there a forgotten mind The forbidden soul And the tortured simile is the metaphor And the undying love Of mine………. Oh sweet misery My sweet misery My only memory of the spot lights Taken from the afterglow Of the war Of the moon Of my life Of the living lie It is the empty moon Lies………..

Too many people at my school are finding about my fiane and boyfriend. so we are havoing huge problems. we might end up breaking up because of it. i dont want to and neither does he. but for now it might be the best thing to do. And obviously there is someone out there who is spreading it to other people that me and him have something. And who ever that is that is trying to break our love for each other is going to die. No matter what it takes Eclipse and i are going to get married. Its done. We have each other now. and though we may get into fights but we will work through them. I PROMISE THAT I WILL NOT GIVE UP MY LOVE.

I am missing every single fiber in his body. I just wish that we could see each other more often. Not seeing him really hurts. And even though we go to school together. It doesnt meen a thing because we dont have any classes next to each other. And the closest class he has to me is next door. but i still cant see or hang out with him. I hate this soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much oi i need help. Eclipse2: I LOVE YOU, i want to hold you in my arms... Navybrat08: hey, my day sucked.

Ok CAD:SLEEP WH2: TEST PE: NOTHING BUT TALK TO BYRON AND SHAN ENG:Not much LUNCH:Talked with friends and Liz got her phone taken away. Math: Right now. I am so bored. like into hell kind of bored. adopt your own virtual pet! Eclipse2: I love you. I hope you are ok. Navybrat08: You should call me later to talk about the project thingys ok :) and dont worry i dont think anything is up with him.

Opposite ends of the earth. They and me Separation. Me and you. Tossed away. GoNe....... Boom, explosions. Drama, drama, drama Bombs, dumbasses. Guilt trips Secrets, lies Tormentations Smoking, drugs, drinking. My head hurts Heartach, happieness pains Nothing, no its not me. Its them. Them to me. THEM AND ME North and South. SHIT SHIT SHIT. AWAY. NOTHNG. Me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ______________________________________ Everytime i am happy most of my other friends are hurting. ______________________________________ This could be...