Maybe it is because no one really knows about this journal or it could be a motorcade of other reasons. I feel like i do not know myself at all, and if someone where to ask me who i am i would not be able to answer them. I love art and music and making the two. However i don't know what artists i truly identify with. I know what music i am bonding with however. I can't at night because of the pressures of nothing. If someone where to move me from here to another place and tell me i couldn't come back until i knew everything would it really help? Half of me wants quiet solitude to go about my art. The other wants me to push myself so more people will notice my works. el desperado xo