Well I managed to be retarted and let my uncontrolleable comments get me grounded longer. I can be stupid sometimes. That's okay. I'm trying harder. I have a docter's appiontment in august to get meds for bipolar, yay I get to be all zombiefied. I really don't care as long as I get better. Today was a semi good day. Mom's at her alcohol meeting.... or at least filling out papers today for the classes. I hope she is really going to them. I'm trying to find a job right now so I can get money to take my GED. I have confidence in myself that I can take it without failing. I have worked on the things I was having trouble with. Then I'm going to a business college. I'm really excited about that. It sucks being grounded I feel so alone. I hate that, especially when I get depressed and need to talk to someone. Brittany is doing really good. Her mother is jelous of Johnny's mom though. she's about 4 months pregnant!!! I'm so excited for her. Well I have to go make dinner now, fun fun. L8, Jessica