Okay, anyone who can help me with this is going to be to greatly appreciated! lol, okay ... I like ((a)), but he's my friend's ex boyfriend. ((a)) is very much confusing me saying that he didn't want me to leave the other day. Also, we have had a very iffy/romantic/fun/making out relationship. Now, ((a)) is very confusing because he also had a relationship with ((female)) and everything, so it's just wierd. Um, I don't know what to do because I gaze at him when I think no one's looking, and I almost always think about him. Now, another problem that goes with this. I also like ((b)) and he has a huge crush on me too. ((b)) doesn't like ((a)) and ((a)) isn't all too fond of ((b)). Urgh, so now I desperately don't know what to do because ((b)) and I have made out. Also, ((b)) is going through a major crisis and I feel as if the make out session was just because he was feeling down and needed a boost, you know? I desperately want ((a)) because he means a lot to me, but ((b)) is going through a hard time and I want to help him out. I like ((a)) the most, though there's major problems. I like ((b)) next, and close ((a)), though there's confusion. ((a)) is not very much liked by many and is my friend's ex. ((b)) is depressed and I don't know his true motives. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! It's so complicated, and that's the best I can do. Please help me if you can. Cadence

Fuck You All. "Hitler" -- Stop fucking assuming things that I said when I never said them. I simply made a statement that I hd to do something, and you started yelling saying I couldn't do it then ... FINE ... I DON'T CARE ... JUST AS LONG AS I CAN GET TO IT!!! Bay -- Just ... urgh ... fine, I realize tension was high ... I was only trying to help you out ... So, just next time don't snap and tell me to go away like that ... I mean, at say Please ... especially when I didn't do anything!! Audrey -- Just ... STOP! You stopped and now you're starting back up ... AGAIN. JUST FUCKING STOP. I mean, you're basically taking ALL of your pain out on US ... and I, for one, just don't deserve it. You make it worse by doing what you do ... you're not helping a single fucking thing. Cadence

I feel so fucking depressed right now. I don't really truly even know why ... I mean, I guess I'm pretty sad because I'm barely talking to anyone any more and I feel like I'm loosing everyone again, just like all of the previous years, though it's not like I totally loose them. I feel like I'm seperately myself from everyone ... like I'm afraid that someone's going to break me ... I don't even know how to explain, it's just wierd and very very annoying. I don't want to be depressed, I want to be happy, but I can't force myself either ... cause that'll just hurt mroe ... DAMN IT ALL!! Music is and isn't my only escape ... HOW THE HELL DID THIS HAPPEN AGAIN?!?!?! FUCK! Cadence

I've been so bored lately ... Here's another quiz: You're crying because you're confused. You're goingthrough a lot of changes and you don't knowwhether to be happy or upset. You don't knowwhat to do or who to trust. You're afraid tomove on, but you're also afriad to stay whereyou are. Sometimes you just wish you coulddisappear. Why are you crying? (beautiful pics) brought to you by Quizilla People see you as a quiet and shy person. Maybe youjust like to be alone. Or maybe you're secretlylonging for some more interaction. YOu're areally caring person on the inside and don'tever want to hurt anyone. Sometimes you cantend to put others before yourself. You're shyand just want to fit in. Some people may justbe intimidated to talk to the "quietkid" so don't let your fears get in theway of making friends. But don't try to besomeone else either. Some people may admire youfor being so quiet and appearing so collected.There are lots of shy people in the world.Don't let yourself fade away. You're worriedabout getting hurt, but don't be so untrusting. What do people see in you? brought to you by Quizilla You're the caged angel. You're either trappedinside your mind or emotions. You're stuck in abig mess of problems and in a way, you'rehiding. You're actually a kind person who wantspeople to like you and be kind back. You don'tknow what to do. You want so badly to get out,but you're afraid to leave and afraid to stay.The outside world is scary to you because youhave a fragile soul and you break down easilyafter so many jerks won't get off your case.It's a shame to keep such a beautiful soullocked up. Which Angel of Darkness are you? (pics) brought to you by Quizilla Cadence

people see a sadness in you, you are sad,depressed, and lonely. the world around you hasworn you down to nothing, the death, thepoverty, the hate, and the fighting tear at youand leave you even more sad then you were. youare a storm of emotion and tears. but you feeland always will. what do people see in you? brought to you by Quizilla Your angel is trying to tell you that...you're emo.Let's face it: you've got some major baggage,but you can't seem to find a place to put it.You see life as a big waste of time and see itas a world of pain as opposed to equal andopposite pain and happiness. You can't find away to let go of your emotions, so sometimesyou turn to self-destructive habits.Song: Silver and Cold- AFI src="http://www.strawberryparfait.net/afi.mp3"height=35 width=200 controller=TRUEautoplay=TRUE loop=TRUE> What is your angel trying to tell you?!?!? _-=Great pics=-_ brought to you by Quizilla Cadence

The park is wonderful. Well, I hung out with Mique (pronounced Mike) this morning. In a way I'm totally glad I did that, and took the chance, but then now I'm left wanting to be held again. I just want to be comforted my a companion, you know? I want to be held. I want to sleep in another's arms. I don't want to be alone. It's almost like a drug: the ability to have someone always be there for you, with you. Please, never say "Good-Bye." Cadence

Well, Abi left us. She went off to college but I miss her so much! She was so much fun to hang around with and everything! Ace is okay, but it's wierd cause when I look at her, I see an innocent child who doesn't know any better, you know? Like, she's only 12 and it's amazing ... did I look like that when I was that age ... I think things like that and I'm surprised that I just notice that she looks that young ... I just find it completely amazing and shocking. I feel depressed again, but I was worse last week, mainly cause of Lucian, so now I'm better. Cadence

Selene, here we COME! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! --- A piece of me ... You are the girl who likes the dream world. Youare the dreamy girl who is usually in her ownworld. You don't like this one so you makeyour own. It's your way to get free ofeverything. What Kind Of Girl Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Cadence

How the fuck to put this ... Audry WON'T LET ME WEAR A MID-THIGH DENIM SKIRT?!?!?! HOW FUCKING WRONG IS THAT?!?!?! I'm sorry, but this is just really fucking pissing me off. I bought it with my Grandma today ... it's denim and meets the school requirements ... so why was my mom's eyes bugging out the second she saw it ... I have no fucking clue. She's way too close minded for me ... I mean ... URGH!! Cadence

I miss being able to tell everything about my life right now. Camp so there's no time, and my mom doesn't want me on this right now. Mucho Love to whoever has come to my DIARY!! Cadence

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Well, there's not much to say. I'm in such a "dancer" mood. I want my dance paws, but I still haven't ordered them yet. I should probably do that, huh? I don't know what's up with Audry any more. I thought she was better again, but now she's not totally sober. I could understand if she gets a little woozy at night, but that's because she's so tired. Audry just doesn't know what the hell this does to everyone around her. I just wish she would straighten herself out. Cadence

Ace wants to be a gym leader? I really don't see how she will ever be able to be a leader at this rate. Maybe if she matures majorly then she'll be able to make it. She keeps on talking to the little ones all the time and keeps on playing with them. they're not going to be able to learn what they are supposed to at this rate. I can not believe how Ace thinks that she can be a leader when she's better off being with a group with the little ones. It's total bullshit. Cadence

Okay, So I fixed this thing up and it doesn't look that bad to me. A little prep, but at this point, I'm not minding. Hope everyone has a good day. Cadence