Im so sorry you guys, it was childish of me to write this on my online diary.. but, this is the only thing that seemed to care.. I know you guys care for me a lot, and Im sorry for what I have said about you or your boyfriends.. I was just really mad, and I was just looking for an excuse, or looking for something to blame.. I was really mad about not being able to go to my mothers. and, I have talked to my mother, and its so hard.. you possibly can't imagine what its like. I just wish someone would understand what Im going through. Im sorry for ruining everything.. I guess stuart was right.. get out of it before its to late. But whatever thats not important.. Its just that im sorry.. Thats all I can say.. It just seems like you are always to busy to hang out with me.. C'mon, we used to be together all the time.. What happened?? Christina, you were right, people do change.. Life goes on.