sorry it took so long to write an entry. i live in houston. therefore, i had to evacuate before the hurricane hit. i'm back now. and houston is spared.how did the football game go? it was great. even though hannah cheered for thomas occasionally, she held on to my arm. which was.. wow. hannah doesnt know it, but i am CRAZY for her. and i feel like we've become closer friends. =] i'm happy. at halftime, we saw the bands and the drill teams, and on the 3rd quarter we went to go get food. we shared nachos and a red powerade. whooo. =]=]=] i'm too smiley. but i'm happy. because hannah and me are friends. hopefully, that will change. =]=]

the last place you would see me is at a football game. but im going to one. tonight. why? because hannah invited a couple of people to go with her. she invited me. thomas won't be there. he'll be out in the field playing football. but i'm still going. because i'm completely crazy for her.edit i barely have time so i won't update until tomorrow about the game. sorry!

i want to thank you all for the comments. i guess i just have to hope for the best and what happens just happens.i've been talking to hannah this whole week. she's extremely sweet and she makes me smile. she's with thomas. and she seems happy with him. and i can't do anything about it. they looked at each other. and it's very heartbreaking when i see her kiss his cheek or hug him. i don't know what to do. =[

hannah is still with thomas... =[ my heart sinks to the bottom of my stomach knowing that she doesn't like me. but she likes him. i feel like i could never be good enough for her, not good enough for any girl. i just hope everything turns out ok. because this is shattering inside of me. no no no. i didn't want this to happen. but it did. i didn't think this to happen. but it did. i didn't believe this would happen. but it did.

yes yes. i talked to hannah again. i guess you could say we're friends now. she waved at me in the hall yesterday. i was happy but then my heart sank down to my stomach. she has a boyfriend. they began going out on wednesday. so that ruined my wonderful day. his name is thomas. hannah and thomas. hmm. i was pretty much shattered. i figured that out yesterday. oh no...i'm not okay. i promise.

i talked to hannah today. =] she's really sweet. i was wondering why a pretty girl like her would me talking to me. but she did. and that made my day. =] you would've laughed at me if you saw me like i was. i was nervous. she's really nice and she made me laugh. hannah, hannah, pretty hannah.im grinning to myself. :Di love you guys! ♥

i saw hannah today. my heart jumped, and all of a sudden, i was nervous. i'm always nervous when it comes to girls: they make that swish shwosh in my stomach. especially hannah. i've fallen hard for her, and i don't even know her. i have her for two classes. she looks at me and smiles and i go crazy for her. she's so beautiful. but then again, she looks and smiles at everyone. hmmmm...

Thanks for the comments loves!yesterday, we went to xavier's house. and watched a movie. that was about it. and we had milk and cookies. it was boring. but it was fun because i was with two people that i love and adore: julie and xavier. both of them are the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. i love you two to death.hannah hannah hannah. i can't stop thinking about hannah. she's plagued my mind. but then again, of course she would, she pretty and beautiful. here i go again.

hello loves! thanks for the comments. remember, comment me, i comment back. add me to your friends list, i'll add you!yesterday was a big blur. i don't want to talk about it. =[ I hope today will be better, going with julie and xavier to go do something. fun. that's all for now!

Today is the weekend.Yesterday me and julie went to the mall. guess who was there? hannah. pretty pretty hannah. she was at American Eagle. I've never stepped in there but i actually managed to because julie got me to. she was with one of her friends. what are the odds of finding her there? but this guy walked over to her. and we left then. =[so there she was.thanks for the comments, loves. ♥add me to your friends list, i'll add you. ♥ here's the rest of my entry. after we left, i decided to just leave the mall, period. i went home and went to bed. but i couldn't stop thinking about hannah. why does this girl get to me so easily? because i've let her. she's in my heart. already. i've got to stop myself from getting my heart broken so easily.this is sex.sex sex sex, that's what that is. i found that here. that is definately hair like sex.♥

kissmemissmeleavemefeelmehere's some things about me:1. i like meeting new people.2. i like it when people flatter me.3. i fall in love easily.comment me and i'll fucking love you. i promise.so now for the real entry.school was the same, as usual. but i had a bad day but julie was there. i love julie. what would i do without her? she's the best person i've ever met and i'd die if i lost her. i remember when i had fallen in love with her. she never felt the same way. but we've become close friends ever since then. i love her to death. i saw this pretty girl. she was beautiful. but she's one of those popular girls, those pretty girls that never would look my way. but she was still beautiful. her name is Hannah. i don't want to fall in love. i'm afraid. it's tragic.Homophobia and You:♥ I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. ♥ I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. ♥ I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. ♥ We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. ♥ I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. ♥ I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. ♥ I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again. ♥ I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. ♥ We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. ♥ I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. ♥ I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. ♥ I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman. ♥ I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. ♥ I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men. ♥ I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. ♥ I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. ♥ I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me. ♥ I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind. ♥ I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. ♥ I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male. ♥ Repost this if you realize homophobia is wrong.