hehe...today marlee and i sung songs from camp, it brought back tons of memories both good and bad. songs: I went to the doctor i went to the mountian i looked to the children i drank from the fountian there's more than one answer to these questions pointing me in a crooked line the less i seek my soul the closer i am to fine *new song* im a big italian woman and i want the world to see all the big italian women who look just like me you can take your slender models and their 5th anvenue clothes but you'll never find a flower like the big italian rose *new song* margaret thatcher on TV shocked by the deaths that took place in Beijing it seems strange that she should be offended the same orders where given by her ive said this before now, you said i was childish if they hated me they would hate you England's no the mystical land of madame george and roses its the home of police who kill black boys on mopeds and i love my boy and thats why im leaving i dont want him to be aware that there's any such thing as greiving *new song* oh will he ever return?! no! he'll never return and his fate is still unlearned (poor old charlie) he may ride forever 'neath the streets of boston he's the man who never returned *new song* how long 'till my soul gets it right? can any human being ever reach that kind of light? i call on the resting soul of Galileo king of nightvision king of insight *new song* let all people live their lives as if life were a song for singing out of line provides the music for the stars to go dancing cirles in the night *new song* mmm delicious mmm mmm delicous mmm delicious mmm mmm delicious thank you for the food we eat! thank you for our hands and feet thank you for the earth we know thank you for the chance to grow! mmm delicious mmm mmm delicious mmm delicious mmm mmm delicious ...YUM... *new song* listen children to a story that was written long ago 'bout a village on a mountian and the valley far below ...go ahaid and hate your neighbor! go ahaid and cheat a friend. do it in the name of heaven you will be justified in the end there wont be any trumpets blowing come the judgement day on the bloody morning after... one tin soldier rides away. *new song* im gonna wrap my self in paper im gonna dab myself in glue stick some stamps on top of my head im gonna mail myself to you! ok thats all the songs for now. goddamit now that i think about it, i dont know what i;d to without IB. that place is like home to me...this summer is gonna be so, well, different. and PIERRE what the hell am i supposed to do?! he's not going to Fair and im never gonna see him again! he's the only guy who has TRULY loved me. If only he knew how much he means to me. but maybe its just a fantasy. Maybe its just stupid. I havnt seen him in half a year. Maybe im making up the perfect guy in my head, and maybe Pierre isnt at all what i remember. Im never going to see him again! just the thought makes me want to cry. I miss him so fucking much. He's the only guy who has really cared. He's the only guy who has truly loved me and wanted me as much as i want him. If only he didnt live in FUCKING PHILIDELPHIA!!! ...life is misserable xoxo