Well. . . I havent updated this in ages so lets see. I have been rocking with the new band Hope Departed. We are recording soon and coming out with an EP, hopefully, by the first of the year. I can't type fast anymore because i don't do it enough. Or maybe thats a good thing. I live off of iTUnes now and work at islands. I go to school and hang out with friends but no one on here hangs out with me anymore. Maybe thats my fault but it still sucks. Well thats if for now. I'm tired of typing a lot.

Fast noise is the beginning of all endings. So what happens next?

pack your shit and leave. and take my memories of her with you.

Or an egotistical fuck! i would like to add that i am no longer friend nor foe. i am that middle man inbetween keeping this world sane from itself. let us keep enjoying our world from the bubble we like to call home and the ignorance from reality. let us keep seeking truth and denying everything else. there's to this world that meets the eye but i guess no one wants to see it. i tell you this much: i sure do.

Fuck You

I have really had no life lately except for playing with stuff on my computer and i have gotten pretty good at messing with songs and mastering them and such things. It is kind of neat. I have a softball game tonight if anyone cares. Who's ready for the holidays? I am!!!

Have you even noticed people trying to make a point but not really just stating the point that they want to get accross? Why is that. I notice that i do it all the time. I guess it is just human nature but i think i want to improve on my straight forwardness. Not in a bad way or anything. Some things should be kept to yourself but if it makes any sense at all, all the important things should be spoken straight. that is all.

Why are we living here on earth? It used to be we were on this earth merely to survive but our technology is so advanced that people aid the survival of those who can not provide for themselves. I beleive that we will someday find the answer but when exactly will that be? We are living under such a strict regamine that people cannot fullfil their full potential or find what they really want in life. We, as human beings, need to let others live to be what they really want no matter how bazaar or how impractical it may be. I will be absolutly honest. Fear will take its toll on us. If only we can get passed that fear that holds us back, we can acomplish anything we really want to accomplish. I am not writing this to preach to the world. I am not writing to this to sound like i have an answer because i dont. No one does. I just want people to look at the light in their life. There are too many people in this world who bring so much negativaty to those who surround them. A lot of times it will consume a person and soon currupt their values and can bring them to and end. Try and get this world back in the right path because we are the future and if we dont fix it now, what will our children have to live under?

Well i thought i would update my journal because its been a while, but i dont know about online journals anymore. I would rather share my feelings on paper where I could look back and see things how they were for myself with out worrying about certain people reading my diary. so i recently started that. i might post enjoyments in my life that i would like to share but other than that, this thing is done. -josh

I was scared but once I thought about, I let it go Everything she said to me I guess I ought to know We're all tired talk when it comes to shove Put up, put out or stay at home. We'll never be the same, never feel this way again I'd give you anything but you want pain. A little water please, I taste you all over my teeth Never again. Just tonight? Ok All at once the music stopped, the feeling went away An ugly picture, me and you, but nothing I can change You know what happens with the lights back on The less you know the more you want

Kim cut my hair yesterday!!! I like it so much better. I dont have hair in my face all the time. It is actually way awsome. Well this week has been good and i got to play the show last wednesday which was way fun and school isnt even a bother right now. I actually enjoy it. THats all for now. bye bye

Ok. Winter Formal was on Saturday and it was a killer time. The dance floor was kind of small and lame but what ev. The after party was pretty kick ass. I got way fucked up and threw up on a door and passed out in my van. I was almost naked and everything. It was so cold and I could have caught namonia. Good thing I didnt. I woke up early the next morning and went to the donut store. It was honestly like 6:30 in the morn. It was way sweet. I even had to work the next day at like 9 so I wasn't feeling to hot. That about it for my weekend. Lots of drama added in but Saturday was way worth it. Saving April show on Wednesday. Make it out if you can. I will try my best to go too and I'm in the band. Go figure. Stupid parents.

I guess only until the worst things happen does the sun start to shine. I love all my friends so much. You help me through the thik and thin and again you get me through crap. I am sorry to all you who saw all the bull shit unfold but I'm glad you were there to help. Just know that I am always here for you all just like I know you are there for me. <3 Josh

Fuck it. Why should they care anymore. Sounds like I'm not amounting to anything anyways.

Well I finally stopped be a faggot and asked Steph to Winter Formal. The will be such a fun night I can already tell. I have been kind of ill as of late. If anyone can help me get rid of a sore throat please tell me how. Finals week!!! Fuck!!! If I dont get an A on my Trig final then I dont get a C in the Class Which means that I'm in deap shit. Please Tutor me if you can. I have recently realized how dependant I am of people. If I didn't have great friends to help me through shit then I would be no where. I thank all of you.

Well i have been up to a lot lately. I dont want to type everything out right now cus i really just dont feel like it but ill summerize the whole bit. -band is recording and doing shit again -looking for winter formal date (if you would like to go with me just ask because it seems to be to hard for me to just ask people. I'm a loser) -show coming up feb 9th -birthday coming up feb 21 -my mommy bought me gummy bears today and i saw my cousin for the first time in a few years. thats my life in a nut shell as of today.

Kevin and I are just sittin here being bored remanissing about all the old sit diary days. "Boobs" by Kevin So keep in touch with my sitD and I will keep mine up too. Hearts to everyone.

I found that picture the other day and just thought, maybe i was ment to be a rockstar this whole time. It must be fate. Either that or I love music soooo much that I cant help but act like a rock star. Anyways, its just a thought. I hope that what i can do with the rest of my life. Well school isnt bad. Only one class and the teacher just ruined my life. She forgot to send me a progress report so she calls my house and tells my mom that i am doing way worse than i accually am. Shes a bitch of a teacher. especially when she doesnt really teach. The band is doing awsome. We have been writing new songs so we dont have to play the same 6 songs every damn show. They are turning out awsome. "I let you live your life, let me live mine"

Saving April played at the galaxy last week and we rocked ass. It was a good one. It was with Newhaven who were as rockin as I have ever seen. Ive been just chillin at home a lot lately. Life is kinda boring and I am looking for something to stir things up. Whether its a girl, a new hobbie, a Saving April world tour, I really am open minded about the subject. Well thats it for now. <3

I went to the Angel game with bucky and rachel and buckys dad last night. It was pretty fun. I havent been to one of those in a long time. They won and it was all good. We went for coffee at It's a Grind after the game and it was good. Triple Mocha Frapps are delicious. No girls in my life right now. It's kind of upsetting. It's mostly my fault though because I havent been interested in any girls inparticular. O well. My soul mate will come soon enough. No doubt. Not a doubt in my mind.