so, yesterday during the day...i went out to st.vital with my girl leah, and we meet up with leahs boyfriend and all our guyfriends from out there. I was soooooo strong, and did so good, im proud of myself..."he" was there, and tryed to hug me and be all lovey with me like always, but i didn't let it happen for ONCE! i didn't say one word to him, i was just the harshest bitch to him, and im proud cuz he has been playing mind games with me for almost a year now. im not gonna lie and say it was easy cuz it was sooooo hard, i mean i will always have that thing for him, and now that it's summer its gonna be the hardest thing ever, but i kno i have to keep strong cuz everything i do with him will just end up being a big mistake in the end. i could see in his eyes he wanted to be with me, he was upset i wasnt with him, but i mean he cant always expect me to be there for him when he's never there for me...so that part of my life is OVER! im really happy to say, and it wasnt even that bad! i mean it was hard but i think it's better this way...... at night, i went to beau's house with all of my friends! it was an interesting time, that's forsure..i ended up walking home with brittney, and it took us about an hour! it was fun tho,we were SOOO wet, it rained so harshly on us! we got our honks tho, hahaha!;) so anyways my friends said something very true to me the other night about all the guys i have liked him the past, or like now, and i think it's making me realize i can't waste my time being single for the wrong reasons, i need to go out and meet someone instead of holding myself back for a certain person when i kno nothing will happen, so cheers to that! im going to go and work out, than tan! wahoo gotta look sexy for the summer peACe gAnGstA's! LOvE: LaurEn!