SINGGGLE SINNNNGLE SINNNGLE for the summer..i dont know if it's a good thing, but i don't think it will be as bad as i thought, it just depends on how i make it..just turn pur PIMP for the summer, hey i have had many guys in the past weekend asking me to hang out! they don't have to know about eacother do they? if i cant have a boyfriend that loves me,than why not have many lil boyfriends! and just have fun with them all! lots of people seem to be doing that now days....haha kinda funny actually cuz people go around saying how gay it is to be a "pimp" and yet they go ahead and do it without realizing it! but w/e i wont lie, i really liked the one night that lasted,i was sooooo happy for a while, but w/e i now know im not the only girl he had a night with, i was nothing special, kinda shitty seeing how he was the only guy id even think about bein wit..i guess i was just a one night stand? i dont even know, it really sucks though coming from the guy i'd do anything for, but w.e thats just the way it is! and now things actually wont ever be the same! well not for now atleast.. cuz i just donnnnnt care no more, im gonna have a lil of my own fun! time for summer GIRLS are we ready! wow so excited! and maybe in the futur one day i will like someone enough to stick around for 9 fucking months, and maybe i will end up having a boyfriend,who will apreciate all the little things i do, and realize them...i wont lie it did hurt me in the worst way, and maybe that's why i am reacting this way, this isnt who i am ( that isn't who you are ) but w/e, i guess sometimes things go weird on us, and we have to be someone we arnt, and for now, i guess i need to have fun....hey it's summer! i wanted a summer love, but if that isn't going to happen than screw it, i cant stay at home all summer long being upset, i gotta have fun....that's all lauren