well this morning a woke up to a big breakfast of waffles and omelets and grits and bacon...but i only ate a minimum...i'm planning on losing around 15lbs...gosh this is going to be hard. well nichole came over and we watched Blade:trinity. later on kristi showed up. so we went to the softball games at 4PM, jv and varsity both lost. well on the way to the games i found out that i'm probably gonna get my permit when i turn 16 i know lame...leave me alone... but yea on the ride home i had a conversation with my g-pa about what happened at home while i was t the games ....omg children and families came to my house and since me and my sis werent there we have to talk to them tomorrow...this is such bullshit...ya know wat kind of stress that is for a kid...everytime something like this happens I feel like i'm being put in a pickle...on one side i live my life with my crazy g-ma that i hate so much...or i could go to a foster home for a minimum of a year.. and that could crush my future... I hate this so much...i hate crying aobut it...i wish my mom would have never died......this pain is too much... i'm a good person...i dont do anything wrong i love everyone but no i get a shitty life...