Ok i'm gonna rant cuz i've cried everyday this weekend and it all needs to be let out. otherwise at school tomorrow i'm gonna explode with emotion...heh i'll probably do it anyway i'm such a drama queen... well my life is good. i'm smart and popular and i have a lot of good things going for me. i'm basically getting everything i need for college handed to me. i deserve it. i've worked hard to get where i am. to be "normal" and have ppl like me and want to be around me. i've even tried hard for ppl never to meet my g-ma...but that never works. i hate her. i'm not ashamed of her. shes just a crazy bitch...i hate her most recently because of why i've been depressed...*sigh* i found out recently that my g-pa has a stomach aneurysm and if it doesnt get treated it could burst and he could hemorrhage to death...........he's my daddy. well he's my g-pa but hes always been there for me in a dad sort of way. idk what i'll do without my daddy. i've lost both my biological parents if i lose him i'll snap.life isnt fair at all. hes a nice man who never did anyone any wrong unlike my bitch of a g-ma that has treated my g-pa like a piece of shit their whole marriage. i swear without him i'll kill her. and shes not helping him at all i think she wants him to die. hes not supposed to be stressed at all and she needs to stop smokign and she keeps bitching at him like hes crap she doesnt treat him like a human being at all. today she would shut up at lunch and he tried to talk to her and she snapped and told him to shut up that his opinion isnt important and that her opinion is the only one that counts i fucking wanted to beat the shit out of her then and there i really cant stand her. she treats him so bad and hes greatest man in my life. i love my g-pa and she should be the one with the fucking aneurysm close to death....she deserves it...you may think thats harsh but thats how i feel. well thats it...for now...the only thing i've done to try and keep it off my mind is running and painting its working for now. PEACE