Up-to-date my ass haha. Obviously I'm not very good at doing that =P Me and Jordan broke up, after dating for merely two weeks, sad I know. But it just wasn't going to work, we are too different, and definitely better off as friends. Saturday was Chase's 16th birthday party, but it wasn't all it was cracked up to be. It was simply 10 friends just hanging out as any other day, which was altight, I wasn't really in the mood for any huge party thing anyways. Half the people were either baked outta their face, or drunk, or both, and there was a strob light; let's just say that that is a fucking hilarious combination! Anyways, not much else to say. Byes. ---вяокεи ģіяł---

Okay well it's been so long! Like... a whole month... soo much to talk about... but I don't want to write it all haha Last night was amazing. I went to Brett's for a party. It was great to hangout with all my CHS buddies again. O...and Jordan haha. We watched 13 Ghosts and just talked and listened to music. Then we watched the "ball-drop" on TV for the countdown. At 11:58 Jordan asked me out =D it was loverly. Then we talked some more and ordered pizza. That's about all for now... I will try to keep this up to date =P ---вяокεи ģіяł---

OMG OMG OMG! HEDLEY CAME TO MY SCHOOL TODAY... FOR ME! I ENTERED A CONTEST AND I WON! JUST SEEING THEM WALK INTO MY CLASSROOM... OMFG IT WAS SO AMAZING! AND JACOB KISSED ME! OMG! AND I WON AN MP3 PLAYER AND THEY ALL AUTOGRAPHED IT! AND I GET TO GO TO THE CONCERT TONIGHT! OMFG ABSOLUTELY AMAZING DAY! ---вяокεи ģіяł---

Well this weekend has been nothing special. On Friday I went to work, then I am pretty sure I did absolutely nothing. On Saturday I went bowling, then I went to a meeting for Junior Achievement. When I got there though, there was no one there! So I called my mentor and he called some other person and apparently the meeting was next Saturday! So yea my mentor screwed up, and I went home. I was going to stay home all night because I was sick but then at around 9:30 Jordan convinced me to go to his place. So I went over and we went for a walk around Royalwood, bad idea since I was sick and it was so cold! Then we went back to his place and watched Coach Carter. My dad picked me up at 11:45. Today I went driving at 11, we did parallel parking, and I wasn't that bad, thank god! Then I came home and I have been on the computer ever since, writing some stupid essay on Romeo and Juliet. It's good, but it is about a page too short... o well. That's about it. ×3 ---вяокεи ģіяł---

Last night started out okay, but after driving I came home and I felt like shit! My throat, neck, back, wrists and legs hurt so much. I had been talking to a few people, including Chase, which made me feel even more like shit, and by 10:15 I couldn't take it anymore! I said good night, which Steve didn't like because I got him all worried about me and then I went to bed. I was in so much pain that I couldn't even find a comfortable postion in my usually perfect bed. So I used my tried and true- cry myself to sleep. When I woke up this morning, I was still in pain, and I felt like throwing up, but I still had to go to school. So now I am in English class, feeling like shit, with noting else to say. I can't wait til this week is over, it's already thursday =) ---вяокεи ģіяł---

-- whoever left me a comment on my last entry asking how I got this background, I can't get to you because you signed it anonymous -- Tonight for drivers we went on the Perimeter Highway. At first I was pretty scared, and I was sure I was going to hit a deer! Buit after a while I got the hang of going 100 km/h and it felt so smooth, it was awesome! When Justine was driving and I was in the back, it was so nice to look outside the window at the stars. We were in the country so there were so many of them! "I wish I lived in the country, they have stars" and my instructor and Justine laughed at me but hey, that's what I think LOL Anyways, not too much going on. Alex started saying shit to me again, so Steve stood up for me, which got him in shit with Alex, and now he's the one worrying about what Alex is going to do to HIM instead of me! I feel so bad because they used to be such good friends, then I came along =( but Steve says he would rather be friends with me than Alex so... I don't know I still feel terrible. I don't know what to do. That's all. ×3 ---вяокεи ģіяł---

So far today has been a good day, full of compliments =) At bowling today Justin won a reindeer in one of those games, and just before he left I gave him his regular hug LOL and he gave me the toy! It was so cute! And he said that maybe next weekend we can go to our movie that he has to keep taking rain checks on. When I got home I went on MSN and was talking to Adam, who is also from bowling, and he was talking to me about how he is shy to talk to me in person. He says it's hard to talk to someone as cute and sexy as me! I don't see myself like that at all, but he called me those things at least three times during the conversation, and it was nice to hear =) I was also talking to this guy I met on Nexopia. We went on webcam and he was telling me how I am cuter than he thought I would be and all. Then we played truth or dare ((probably not the best idea seeing how he is 19)) but he was considerate and knew to take it slow. So I had to turn and let him see the ass ((in the pants don't worry)) and when i turned he saw my tummy and was like "o wow! someone does 6000 situps a night!" I was just like =| no LOL but yea so he's really nice and yea. Sometimes it's just nice for someone with low self-esteem ((like myself)) to hear things like that about themselves =) that's all, life's still going good. ---вяокεи ģіяł---

-- or we could always say Chase the ASS -- So a few days ago Brett told me that Chase has to tell me something. Today, Chase told me. He really likes Jen and even though she has a boyfriend he is going to wait for her! What an ass! O well, I don't care anymore... when he told me... I didn't even cry. Hell, I didn't even frown! I really DON'T CARE! Yay! Anyways, so I have this new friend Tim... he's definitely protacular! =D yea he's awesome! That's all. ---вяокεи ģіяł---

-- suger we're goin down swingin, i'll be your number one with a bullet, loaded gun complex, cock it and pull it -- Tonight was such a fun night. I was supposed to go to Jordan's house to watch a movie, but then that wasn't happening so I made plans to meet Jason, who has been trying to get me to hangout with him for a long time. But then Justine wanted to come and so did Jordan, so I actually did get to spend the night with him =) Me, Justine, Steph and Jordan walked to Fermor and met Jason and Gilmore. We went to McDonalds for a bit, where these two guys were having a tailgate party in the parking lot ((yea weird... I know))then we went to Safeway and Jason took signs and stuck them behind this guys car so he would have to move them to get out of the parking lot, it was hilarious LOL then we walked to Island Lakes and walked Steph home. Then Jordan and Justine came over and we watched Aladdin, yea I love that movie ahaha then me and Jordan walked Justine to Shell where she met Rowan and they left then me and Jordan waited for his dad to come get him. When his dad got there I gave him a hug (( =D )) and then walked home, by myself =( LOL even though it's just down the street =P I think I am starting to like Jordan... but everything is too complicated right now because I still love Chase so very much <3 ---вяокεи ģіяł---

-- yes I do realise that this is my third entry today but I am on spare and I am bored -- On Saturday night I went to a party because the Mustangs football team won the championship. I went with Jordan, Justine, and Breanna and it was so much fun! Jessie was kinda all over Jordan all night which pissed me off, but whatever. It was really cold but there was a huge bonfire so that was okay, and the alcohal kept the insides warm =) I didn't drink too much, half a beer, half a Vodka Mudshake ((most amazing thing ever)) and some orange juice and Malibu, so I was pretty much all there LOL which was nice. I got a super bad headache yesterday though because I mixed my drinks wrong, remember: -- beer before liquor and you'll get sicker, liquor before beer you're in the clear. I guess I'll have to remember that for next time. But it was soo amazingly fun and I hope to go to another one soon! =D ---вяокεи ģіяł---

On Friday I went to POWERBALL at the MTS centre. Before we went to pick up Amanda I chugged an energy drink, all I have to say about that is... bad idea. We were on the floor so it was fricken amazing, but that also meant that we were jumping around alot, and the bass was making my tummy jump, so... I got sick. By the fourth band I couldn't be on the floor anymore so I went and sat up top with these grade 12s that I knew. They were drunk LOL it was so funny. Otherwise, the concert was pretty good. I had to do some deep-breathing to keep the barf down though, and then when I got home a puked a little, but the next morning I was fine. Can't wait until MCR =D ---вяокεи ģіяł---

On Thursday I went to see Default and Staind at the Burton Cummings. Okay so Default was fricken amazing, and during intermission I got to meet them and get their autographs =D Staind was pretty good too. It was an awesome night! ---вяокεи ģіяł---

Me and Steve broke up. It just wasn't working for me. And it wasn't fair to him if I was thinking about someone else. That's all I wanna say. ---вяокεи ģіяł---

-- this is a hectic movie, if you've never seen it, watch it! -- Anyways, Thursday was the Halloween dance at school. After school I went to Steph's with Jessie and Sam and we got ready for the dance. Me, Jessie and Steph were cowgirls and Sam was a showgirl. Steph made my hair all curly and I REALLY liked it, I wish it was like that all the time =) Then we went over the Breanna's and Justine and Jen were there. Justine was a cowgirl too, Breanna was a schoolgirl and Jen was an angel. Everyone looked so good =D Then we walked from Breanna's to the school, it was so effin cold! and we were all in skirts! =| but yea so we got there and there were quite a few people there, and then a little later Steve came with Dame. I went over and saw him and then a slow song came on so I got to dance my first slow dance, EVER. It was very nice. Then the rest of the night was spent dancing and grinding ((which I have also never done before))and it was all very nice. I had a lovely time, thanks to everyone, and thanks to Steve, love ya hun <3

Last night a whole group of us went to go see The Fog. It was kind of scary but I had Steve so it was okay. Steve and I have been seeing each other for a couple weeks, but last night he made it official by asking me out during the movie. This is the third time we're going out, and I hope that third time's a charm =) Reading over previous entries, I still think about my ex, but after what he did to me, I know that it should be pretty easy to get over him. O by the way... I LOVE YOU STEVE <3 ---вяокεи ģіяł---

--another broken heart, another lesson learned-- My boyfriend cheated on me. It is a really long story and I don't really want to explain the whole thing now, but he cheated on me and I did what I had to do. He likes the girl he cheated on me with, so I knew I had to drop him, no matter how much I love him =( The thing that really pisses me off though, is that two days after we broke up, he asked the other chick out. TWO FUCKING DAYS!!! I could have had a boyfriend the very next day but I didn't because I have a fucking heart. God I am so mad. Anyways... boys are idiots, watch out for them. O and just to add, the girl he cheated on me with is the girl that I felt threatened by ((if you read an earlier entry you will know what I mean)) it's the fucking girl he told me I didn't have to worry about, well boy I was right to be threatened by her. FUCK! ---вяокεи ģіяł---

In about 30 minutes I am taking my beginners test for drivers ed, and I am very nervous, even though I know that I know all I can know. I have been taking online quizzes and doing very well, so I guess all that's left to do now is wait and see how it goes. Wish me luck, and I will update with my results. ---вяокεи ģіяł--- [edit] I PASSED!!! omg it had to be one of the easiest tests I have ever taken in my life! I only got two wrong! and today I went to get my picture taken so I actually have my beginners licence, picture and all! I'm so excited to start driving! ---вяокεи ģіяł---

MCR IS COMING AND I GET TO GO SEE THEM!!! They are coming to the Convention Centre on Monday, December 5th. I am sooo excited =D wHo0o Ho0o ---вяокεи ģіяł---

Last night I realized how popular with the ladies my boyfriend actually is, and it worries me. The girls that he hangs out with are prettier and a whole lot skinnier than I am. He gives them piggy backs and such and even though he tells me he can do it to me too, I won't let him because then he will realize that I actually weigh more than I look like I do. I feel so threatened by his friends, but I don't really want to say anything because I am like an intruder. They have all been going to school together and have been friends for a lot longer than I have known any of them, and I don't even go to school with them. And then for this 'new-comer' to just come in and mess it all up, I would feel horrible. I want to tell my boyfriend but I don't want him to think that I am jealous. ---вяокεи ģіяł--- [edit] Well I told my boyfriend how I felt. And he took it very well. He told me that he doesn't care if the girls are skinnier than me, I am perfect for him. He told me that I am gorgeous too. He said he will try to keep a watch out and see if the other girls do seem like they like him or something. I am glad I have someone as understanding as him. I love him to bits <3 ---вяокεи ģіяł---

I know I haven't written in a while, but I don't really have anything to say. Life's been going pretty awesome, which is nice. Yay. I don't know, that's all. Someone comment me and give me something to talk about. ---вяокεи ģіяł---