wow..its early..3 27 in the morning..i dont sleep to much. i have bad nightmares and wake up crying or screaming or shaking and i just dont like it so i just dont sleep. i did another 2 sets of 50 crunches..i am down to 108lbs...few more pounds to go and i will be at my ideal weight. woo hoo. i cant wait till i get there. the lowest ive gotten was 104 and i miss it. Its not to terribly skinny. im happy with it. now i just need to get my hair cut and dye it and ill be happy...hopefully. i talked to brian tonight for awhile..I found out he isnt coming home till friday..so that stinks..but at least i dont work then so i can see him..right now im stlpunk chatting and looking at peoples pages. people piss me off on there cuz they think its a stupid dating service..grr. its about punk music. not about "hey your single" no stupid heads..anyhoo..My friend got me thinking about my grandpa..he died a year ago. June 9th was the one year mark..I miss him a lot. He was the greatest person and the night he got put intot hte hosptial i left him...i went to flordia with my mom. my dad told me hed be out of the hospital the next day but i still shouldve stayed home. geez i cant believ ei left him there to die..without saying good bye or saying i love you...im horrible. well..im gonna go do some stuff.. much love.