wow what a day.. ok first off of the day.my dad just upset me. he told me many things i didnt want to hear but the worst was that he was disappointed in me. not a good feeling. but then i went to church and that was good. brian was there and he kept asking what was wrong but i blew him off because i was upset and in the middle of church and i didnt want to talk about it. But Jason did the most beautiful sermon today. All about love and how love conquers over everything. and how love can overwhelm your enemies and just so amazing..then i went to brians where we layed in his bed and giggled and had a good time. Then we ate some food. Then i had to leave my sweetie and go to my cousins. man whe i am with brian everything seems just to go well. and how he loves to have his arms around me or always having to be touching me as in holding my hand or even a finger. its such a good feeling. well iwent to my cousins and slept and then came home did my scrapbook cuz i was bored. Brian was at work. but he came home and we just had the most wonderful conversation. We talked about our love. and how his is growing super fast :) and we talked about how good this relationship is and we talked more about our past and what we used to be like and we talked about God and we talked about many things and i think tonight he proved to me that he truly does want to be with me. i dont know how he did but he did and im trendmosnsly happy with that. i still have the fear of losing him but after tonight it went down a lot. i just wish he knew how much he means to me. its hard to explain but he does mean a lot to me. he is the only one who knows how to mnake me feel beautiful. he comforts me. he knows how to react when i get upset and he just knows me as a person and i love it and how he loves me as a person is the greatest feeling..AHHH well im off now later I LOVE BRIAN SO MUCH!