Alright. I just need to type it. I haven't actually said the words out loud yet but I've thought them. I was raped. I was hanging out with a few friends and I got high for the first time and drank more than I've ever drank in my life. This guy kept making me take shots when I didn't want to but he wouldn't shut up so I just kept taking them and then when I got sick my friend was going to take care of me but she was drunk to and after a while he persuaded her to let him take care of me. All I remember is puking into a bucket for a long time and then my next memory is of this guy on top of me and my arms pinned down while I'm saying "no.. no... no" over and over. I woke up wearing just my pants and shirt, no underwear or bra. I remember what happened a feel like I'm going to puke and see this guy lying next to me. I couldn't fall back asleep, I just lied there and waited for him to leave. I kept what happened to myself all day and then when Tristan came to pick me up later I told him what happened and tried to force me to go to the hospital but I wouldn't go. Then he brought me back to his place and tried to convince me that I needed to tell someone. Then when we got back to school yesterday he finally was like "I'm calling someone" and he left. He showed up with one of our friends and we all cried for a while and then she convinced me that I had to go to the police and the health center. So I will. When I took a shower this morning I saw bruises on my arms on each side in the same spot and a bruise on my jaw and another on my left leg. I'm so scared right now... what if I find out that I got some disease from him? Tristan has been so great with all of this... he's really helping me deal with everything. I just can't believe this happened to me... it's like a dream. Especially since I was so drunk and high... ugh I wish I could remember more.