well yea right no i am feeling about as depressed as i've ever felt. my life is so fucked up without you and you know who you are. i really miss you. no matter what i do i cant get you out of my head the only time i am not thinking about how bad i fucked up is when i am completly hammered. i just really wish things would have been different. i guess i should have taken you more seriously because i really fucked things up. but right now it just seems that i only have like 3 people that r here for me. and it just seems fucked up cause i used to be good friends with everyone and now i am pretty much a loner. i am also fed up with living the earlier my life ends the happier i'll be. unless i can find someone as good as you to keep me from doing something dumb.

yea well right now i have noone to be with. i am pretty much alone besides a few friends. some certain things have really fucked with my head lately and right now i am pretty much just waiting for lifes end. mainly because i have noone holding me back. well you know it will happen eventually, and i will probably love the day it happens to take me out of this fucked up world. i always seem to fuck things up and mess up other peoples lives but you know people are supposed to forgive and forget but oh well.

dont ask about the name but yea i am horny, but hey whats new right. Well i gave Brittany roses for our 5th anniversary on sunday. yea it was supposed 2 be a surprise but when i got 2 her house she was already their. oh well she got them.lol. I LOVE YOU BABY. i guess i will see you friday.

Well the weekend was pretty good. Brittany and I went 2 Williamsburgs homecoming. We won the game, Clint and Jess won. Yea it got pretty boring. Instead of going 2 the dance Brittany and I just went 2 my dads for a while. Then at like 2:30 in the morning saturday, i had 2 go into williamsburg and give my cousin and her friends a ride 2 my dads, because kristina's car broke down. Then Saturday my dad and i went and put her car on a trailer and took it back 2 her house in paola. When my dad and i were getting gas i saw Brittany, she asked if i wanted 2 come over after i took a shower and all that good stuff. We watched The Longest Yard and Marksman. On Sunday I did my homework then went 2 Brittany's again. We watched Sahara. Well i didnt get 2 see her 2nite which sucks cause i really miss her and i had a lonely drive home on Sunday. I LOVE YOU BRITTANY. Hopefully I get 2 see you 2morrow.

well i got a new car, 94 eclipse. fuckin aye right doggy. yep pretty sweet. well saturday i woke up at 8 and spent all morining until about 2:30 cleaning out my celica and waxing the eclipse, it was alright. went 2 the carshow with my dad and sister then i went with kevin 2 pick up brittany then we went 2 the car show. pretty cool. Thank you so much brittany for everything cause who knows where i'd be if i would have never met you. dont even wanna think about it. I LOVE YOU.

well yea, you ever feel like you just have 2 hump something, if u get this feeling you know how I feel at this very moment and pretty much 24/7. yea I could hump the shit out of you brittany, just bend over I dare you.lol. just messin around, but I probably would.lol. well goin 2 Jack Stack BBQ wit Britt. I'm a white wrappa just like wammy wussel.lol. I know I am an ass. I LOVE YOU BRITTANY. see you in like 8 hours or so. fuckin aye right mutha fuckas.

well this week has sucked i only got 2 see brittany one day. yea and its the weekend and i dont know what 2 do i am losing my mind. i love you baby, i really really miss you. the other night at work just wasnt enough i want 2 be with you and hold you in my arms. I LOVE YOU.

well 2night was fun my adrenaline is still pumping from earlier happenings. a few of you know what i am talking about. well going 2 olive garden with brittany and her family later 2day its 7:30 right now about an hour and a half until i gotta get ready. been awake for like the past 4 or 5 hours. met ronja she is pretty cool. dont talk much but shes cool. going 2 a party later 2night after we all go 2 the olive garden. and thats about it besides i get paid wednesday and we start school thursday. fucking gay. no way in hell do i want 2 go back 2 that hell hole. oh well one more year. fuckin a right doggy.lol. well gonna go. Brittany - i love you baby cant wait 2 see you later. Krysten - keep on keepin on and have fun with the foreigner.lol. Tara - keep it real homie.lol. and yea thats everyone that reads this damn thing.lol. oh well at least a few of you care about me.lol. peace out.

well 2day i went and cashed my check. 72 dollaz. hell yea for like 3 days. took brittany 2 the mall for her b-day only a week late. she knows i love her though. spent pretty much al of my paycheck but oh well it was for a good reason. watched the wedding crashers. funny fuckin movie. bought her a few shirts. then we ate at applebees. went back 2 her house for a while then went 2 el mezcal with her parents her and i didnt get nething because we just ate. i played with her phone recording people and taking pictures of them without them knowing. pretty funny.lol. i cant wait till my next paycheck i am going 2 buy a phone finally. hell yea gonna be cool. definately gonna have a picture phone. get some pics of brittany's bootay.lol. you betya. well i am gonna get nothin else 2 write about besides i have a penis. I LOVE YOU BRITTANY. see u 2morrow at work. snuggums.lol

i am whimsical, all my little fuzzy woodland creatures come to me. lol. oh yea fucking bored. finally got a job. cook at sonic. minimum wage, damnit. i need money. oh well it works for now. have 2 work tonight. woohoo. everybody Brittany's b-day is this weekend. one year older for my little snuggums. lol dont know where that nickname came from but it works. lol. its getting close 2 Britt and i's 3 month anniversary. well, yea. thast about it. GOD DAMNIT, fuckin refreshed now its on their twice. son of a bitch cock whore cum guzzling ass pirate penis wrinkled twat.

i am whimsical, all my little fuzzy woodland creatures come to me. lol. oh yea fucking bored. finally got a job. cook at sonic. minimum wage, damnit. i need money. oh well it works for now. have 2 work tonight. woohoo. everybody Brittany's b-day is this weekend. one year older for my little snuggums. lol dont know where that nickname came from but it works. lol. its getting close 2 Britt and i's 3 month anniversary. well, yea. thast about it.

ok i am u7pdating get off my back.lol naa its ok. well here it is. nothin much goin on besides i didnt get 2 go 2 a pasture party kinda pissed abo7ut that, but oh well nothin i can do about it. well going 2 help brittany and them move this weekend. pretty cool, brittany's room is in the basement, awesome.well thast about it dont feel like doin shoutouts but those of u i care about know it so i dont have 2 say it. alright well i am going 2 go play with myself.lol not really i was joking fawwkers

well i found out that brian is ok he has a fractured spine but its supposed 2 be healed in like 26 weeks he is already out of the hospital and back at his house. at least he is alright. Well 2night was pretty crazy got 2 brittany's played some card games with her and her mom i won in uno. that game is cool just because i won. lost the other game didnt even know what it was called. like skib-bo or something like that.lol. i had some cool flashing teeth things that looked like police lights. pretty cool. gave brittany a snap glo necklace thing, year old didnt have any juice left pretty gay. went out by the co-op 2 watch the pretty fireworks. they were pretty cool. Brittany wasnt feeling 2 good, kind of a downer but its ok because i got 2 see her. we went back 2 her house and sat around until i had 2 go home and now i am sitting here at like 1 in the morning and for some reason i am really hyper i dont know what my deal is. i just need 2 run or something its GAY! LOL ok well i am going 2 go run around the block or something. i dont even know if nebody will actually read this besides brittany and maybe a few others. but oh well if they dont even care for me they can fuck off i dont really care. poke them in the eye or some shit sometime. yea bitches you heard me. woohoo. leave me something special i want 2 feel loved. lol hahaha. i have a PENIS.well i am going 2 go blow something up i'm bored. might just touch myself in naughty places. what the hell are you thinkin. lol. thats kinda weird. ok yea. Brittany - i love you baby Krysten - when the hell u gonna be back in town. lol Tara - i'm happy for you, play safe,lol Myself - behave you dirty little fawwker.lol well if i missed ya sorry, but yo7u probably didnt read the damn thing neways you just wanted 2 see if you were mentioned.lol. god damn thats long 4 me

fuck, i just found out that one of my best friends wrecked their car last week and fractured their spine. Hopefully he gets better and isnt paralyzed or anything. Figured i would call his parents and see how he is doing. I miss your Brittany, havent gotten 2 see you in almost a week. I love you. See you 2morrow.

I love you Brittany. Every day, hour, minute, sec we spend apart is torture 2 me. When i am not with you it feels like a large part of me is missing. I love you.

ey, holy shit been a while since i been on here. Well i got new shoes yesterday they r sweet, might be getting a new motor for my car, Hell Yea. The other day Brittany was in town, we spent while at my moms and went 2 my dads and ate tacos. My sister got a new car its pretty sweet. Thats about it. I Love You Brittany.

Well, today is Brittany and I's one month anniversary. I Love You. I cant wait 2 see u again. I miss you. Well 2day was interesting went 2 tara's for a while met ashley. Then i when i was coming home i saw krysten out grillin so i went and said hi. Then i got forced 2 eat so yea.

This is drivin me nuts, I miss you Brittany. I havent gotten to talk 2 you in almost 2 days. Hopefully i will get 2 see you later 2day. its 12:21a.m. yea finally got 2 talk to you baby a little before midnight. Goin 2 deliver my application 2 Sonic 2morrow sometime. hopefully they hire me. I NEED MONEY. $$$$$ If i get about 50 bucks i am goin 2 buy another spoiler for my car. gonna be cool. Brittany and I have 5 more days until our 1 month anniversary. well thats about it. Brittany - I LOVE YOU, and I really miss you Krysten & Tara aka the F.A.T.S - u 2 keep on, things are goin 2 start looking up for the both of you. Both of you will find someone that is right for you.

Well, Brittany came to my dad's house last night for my sister's b-day. We were down stairs for the important parts. Spent most of the night in my room talking. Then I had to take her home. Dont have any idea whats goin 2 happen 2day. I only woke up half an hour ago. and its 1:30. 2morrow I have to be at my dads before 10 in the morning, MARINE CORPS. They want me. lol. Goin to have to talk to him forever then i wont be able to go back to sleep. Damnit. Hopefully I get to see you again soon Brittany, I am missing you already. Holy Shit I think this is the longest entry I have. shibby. Brittany - I love you Krysten - I really hope things start going your way. Chris - Keep chasin cooter. If you pet it, it will come. lol Tara - havent talked to for quite a while, let me know how things are goin for you sometime.

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