hmm.. well.. its been about a month since I have updated.. not a whole lot has happend.. Lakers are out of the playoffs so are the suns. I cried when the suns lost how pathetic.. yep yep...well now it is down to Mav's and Heat.. I hope tat the heat kick mav butt!! I hate Dirk. Anyways.. My Nephews due date is on the 10th of July. i can't wait I get to go to colorado.. but I don't get to help with vacation bible school.. :( Thats okay though.. time in colorado.. got to love it..I really hate my job it sucks.. Its really boring.. I really want to work at goodys.. I got two new shirts for senior pictures.. and I got another fish after the other one died, a long times ago its name is Bryant wade Phoenix, just Phoenix of short.. Anyways.. I haven't done a whole lot this summer just slept in till about 1 everyday.. Cheerleading is going good.. I guess.. basketball camp is this week.. how exciting.. alright I'm running out of things to say.. Umm this weekend is Jayhawkers day I think that its going to be fun.. I get out of working on Saturday, but not sunday... Blah.. anyways.. I'm going to go!

I'm sitting here in VPL, in which mason and I were supposed to get out of, but Mrs.Wildeman was gone so Nancy didn't know for sure.. so I didn't get to leave blah! Anyways... I really don't have anything to say, LAKERS won last night it was the greatest game ever yep yep... I have cheer practice tonight. Then I'm going to see if Georgia's sister can try to figure out my hair for prom. Yeah Anyways.. There is still like 15 minutes left in class.. and I have nothing to do.. I guess that I could try to figure out math. But what fun is that exactly none.. mason left for his Baseball game.. GOOD LUCK MASON! haha.. Anyways.. I'm going to go ahead and go so that I don't get in trouble. Umm.. I had one more thing to say but I forgot what it was.. Well.. I went to Colorado this weekend and didn't get home till really late.. well laters!

So Now, O know why Cody broke up with me and it was for an ugly bitch that likes to talk shit on me..and I don't even know why.. I didn't do shit to her.. I don't deserve to be treated this way. I was Great to Cody and I didn't do anything to him either.. and yet he has some asshole from ottawa say crap to me just to try to get me down.. and it worked..But I'm not going to let him know that cause I'm sure thats what he wants.. I just don't see after how long him and I were together before and then even now.. I didn't do anything to him and yet he treats me this way.. I just don't understand, I couldn't imagin treating anyone this bad.. I mean I know that at times I can be a bitch.. but I wouldn't do something like this.. And after all of this I can't call and even tell him what I think or say anything to sam.. or tell his mom.. cause I don't want to get him in trouble and I don't want him to mad. And even after all of this shit I just want him to be happy even if it isn't with me. I'm okay with that. Even if it is a 22 year old who is robin the cradle.. I hope she is happy.. Anyways.. I guess that I am done venting. By the way georgia.. if I start to act like mason, when he was sad.. please tell me and I will try to change quickly cause I don't want to do that to you guys.. I can't say I'm always going to be happy, but I'm sure going to try! alright well laters.

Okay, So I’m in Computers… and I am supposed to be working out of a book today cause we have a sub..but he told us that we just had to pretend like we were working out of it… so I’m in Word and I’m just going to copy and paste this to sit… lol.. hey it works :p. so Cody and I broke up last night..:( I haven’t really cried a whole lot.. I’ve been Trying not to think about it very much.. cause I know if I do I will cry… But I wish that I had a better reason than it just isn’t working out. Ya know… But anyways…. I’m really bored…So the teacher was just looking over my shoulders and I just told her that we were supposed to pretend like we were working on something.. I hate.. having subs.. at least when he says we are supposed to be doing something.. It really bugs me.. anyways.. I’m going to actually work on the assignment.. cause this isn’t working.

Okay.. I really don't have a whole lot to say.. but I'm excited cause I got my licence finally!!! Its greatness.. now my car just has to get fixed.. I'm leaving for colorado tomorrow.. I'm excited about that too.. god my life is really boring I don't ever really do anything.

Okay so I'm pretty sure that Cody is cheating on me.. but I dont' know what I should do.. I don't really have a whole lot else to say cause it would only be about cody and I know.. people get tired of hearing it.. so laters!

Soo.. I'm having a pitty party for myself right now.. I really wonder if he is cheating on me.. or is he cheating on her?? maybe that is the question.. maybe I'm just jumping to conclusions.. yeah thats it.. okay I don't know.. I'm just worrying myself. Maybe one day when she is on I should just ask her about it.. or I could talk to cody about it.. but I'm to scared to ask him especailly(sp) if he isn't cause then I would just feel like a bitch. But I am kinda of a bitch.. anyways.. I could ask sam about it.. but she I believe would rather see Brandi and Cody together cause thats just the way she makes it seems in her xanga.. I could talk to sams' mom, but then I have a chance at getting people in trouble..:( I just don't know what to do or who to talk to about this.. I mean Georgia and everyone is here to listen to me.. but they don't know.. what is really going on.. they just tell what I want to here.. which is a good thing they did that cause if they didn't I would always think the worst.. well I suppose that I am going to quit complaining cause I'm sure u don't want to here about this anymore.. so.. laters!

Well.. I'm happy.. everything in my life seems to be going pretty well.. yep yep.. Today in gym.. Mrs. Aubert told our student teacher that Georgia wants to go to prom with him.. and I really need to talk to georgia but I cant' go to the art building and tell her.. soo.. I hope I run into her before track so that she knows.. anyways.. I don't really have a whole lot to say.. but I'm really tired.. yep yep.. I'm starting to get excited about prom.. going shopping for everything.. I just can't wait.. and I think that I might have fun with the guy Kyle I don't know him really but from what I've heard he is a nice guy.. but then I get to hang out with my friends and everything it is going to be great. I can't belive that this year is almost over.. and next year.. I will be a senior.. I almost want to cry. It is amazing how time flys I remember times when I was in junior high and elementary school.. *tear* So I had a pretty good weekend.. on Friday.. I went and hung out with Cody and then afterwards I went and hung out with Scott and it was funny. Him and my mom crack me up. Then on Saturday I went to work and then I had some people over to my house and we drank alittle and Georgia and Mason stayed the night and we all watched pearl harbor and then I cried for ever, it was so sad...Sunday I went to work :( blah and it was a long day since the time change. after I got off work I went into ottawa... inwhich Cody didn't really talk to me he just took my phone and my truck and went to wal*Mart I was like what the hell anyways.. I got home a little before 6 and then I went to my grandma's. then Georgia and Mason came over and helped me with math.. then.. I got on the internet and made a cd and that was about all.. alright well.. I'm goign to go cause I'm running out of things to talk about.. ohh wait hold on.. Wednesday is my 17th birthday.. along with Evan's! and Alishia's and Mr. Johnson's Wife's yep yep.. so make sure to tell everyone that I just mentioned happy b-day on wednesday. Also I had something else to say but I forgot.. so.. umm ohh Mr. Odoyle died.. R.I.P. Odoyle! God I really wish that I could remember what I was going to say.. but I don't think that will happen so laters!

I really don't have a lot to say, I have a date to prom. I only know his name though.. lol. But Anyways.. I think everything is going pretty good with me and Cody we haven't really talked a whole lot the last few days but I have been really busy. with Cheerleading tryouts. I'm getting excited about Cheerleading next year I think that it is going to be fun.. I can't belive that I am going to be a Senior next year.. its sorta scary.. well anyways.. I don't want to get in trouble for being on here so I'm going to go laters!

So... I'm not in a really good mood right now.. Sam and Clarence are asleep on my bed.. which I mean I really don't care about that. But earlier Cody left with Some girl that I don't know.. and also called one of his ex's that I mean I don't really understand there relationship.. and I'm almost to scared to ask Cody about it.. It seems like he trys to hide so much from me like I know that he smokes, but he trying to hide it.. he's just not very good at it.. I think that he thinks that I am stupid or something but I'm not really that stupid and dumb.. I may act like it.. but I'm not oblivious to everything in this fucking world.. anyways.. georgia I know that you have already heard about all of this but I just still feel like venting.. I just don't know it I should worry or not.. I love him so much always.. have an always will.. anyways.. I probably don't have anything to worry about.. I just don't think that I make him happy. But I feel really alone right now.. cause I'm not real sure what cody is doing and well.. sams with her b.f like I said earlier. I don't know what I would do if Georgia wasn't on talking to me I think that I would go crazy. Lakers lost today.. which I kinda figured that they would but they only lost by 1 point.. it was special.. I'm so glad that it is spring break.. minus the cold weather.. I wish that it was warm outside. well I think that I'm going to go cause I'm tired.. and georgia is leaving me so now.. I am really all alone :( I'm going to go to sleep and cry and be alone in self-pitty.. I promise this wont last to long though.. as long and I don't know well anyways.. talk to u laters!

Okay so I guess that I need to update a little more...lol...but anyways..I was kinda tired..right now just got done with an english test ablah!! fo sho wit it...man its been a while since I have done that boy I miss bridger.. he rocked!! but his girlfriend killed everything.. he's a dick now...anyways.. I had a interesting weekend but I don't have enought time to talk about it right now so I am going to go so peace out girl scout!!

SO it doesn't even seem like georgia gets on here anymore.. I guess I'm just not goig to write in here until she does agian.. so laters.

Well I'm so happy! Cody and I are back together. I didn't think I would get another chance.. but I did.. but anways.. I'm sure that you really don't want to here anymore bout this (georgia) :P. Well.. my weekend was pretty busy.. I hung out with sam and Cody while georgia was with her sister.. in um some town not real sure where. lol well I don't have much to say.. and I'm in VPL so I better go laters!!

I'm really bored.. just sulking in selfpity god that isn't good.. I shouldn't feel so bad for myslef I could have stoped it.. but I didn't. Its my falut. well anyways.. I don't really have a whole lot to say.. since basketball is over.. I don't really have anything to do.. so umm.. well.. I've been tanning alot.. okay well .. I'm going to go before I get in trouble

TODAY IS THE DAY!!! ROCK ON I CAN'T WAIT IT IS GOING TO BE A BLAST!!! HAHA WELL I GOT TO GO TO WORK SO LATERS!

I found this at nba.com listened to the 2nd quarter in a hotel in sydney was waiting for the laker's d to kick in but had to go out then, my god, heavens to betsy, heavens to murgatroid i get a page from anthony saying kobe scored 81 this is stunning ya just gotta enjoy it ya just gotta bask in the glory of it take a bath in it after pondering this unbelievable achievement for a couple of days... it really does take a little time for something like this to settle in kobe bryant has transcended what human beings are normally capable of doing i don't care if another good player in the nba jacked up 44 shots they still couldn't do it not when the other teams entire defense is geared towards stopping him what he has done is extra ordinary even by the very high standards we judge him by i believe that this has happened because of a very unique life led by kobe the reason that kobe has so many detractors, haters if you will is not because he is arrogant not because of the criminal charges against him not because of his selfish play on the court not because he won so much and people are jealous, sour grapes not because he young, rich, good looking, pompous, etc.......... the reason people judge kobe so harshly and are put off by him is the reason he scored 81 points the other night and is the greatest basketball player in the world kobe bryant is a basketball freak i use the word freak without judgement and, truthfully, as a compliment to him for his dedication and commitment to fullfilling his destiny like the greatest artists and athletes and writers and scientists of all time kobe has worked so diligently in his life to perfect his game and bring it to the highest level that he has neglected other parts of his life kobe is not good at being a warm public figure and he comes off as aloof, arrogant, calculated...... it is not because he is not a caring good person he is a great person it is because he just did not learn those skills of expression he was too busy becoming a basketball genius this is a sacrifice that kobe made it is harder for him to have a different balance in his life than it is for all his detractors this is the same for any great artist or philosopher that has ever lived most of whom were judged harshly this is a position that god put him in he has a gift and he has not wasted it his gift to the world is not to be a feel good public personality his gift to the world is to express himself on the basketball court and this is a beautiful thing and he should be applauded for it not just for his accomplishments but for the the enormous sacrifices he has made to make this major contribution to our culture that is why he is so great part of the reason kobe has turned in the 2nd (1st? 3rd?) greatest offensive display in basketball history (dont forget cheryl miller either not just wilt) is because of the his fall from grace in the public eye kobe, like every human being on earth has one number one desire in his life........ to give and receive love it undoubtedly hurt kobe to be talked about negatively so incessantly he wanted and wants to explain himself, to let everyone know that everyone makes mistakes but that he is a loving person and that he has learned from his mistakes and he loves humanity, loves god, wants to live for the purpose of putting good energy in the world his way to do that is not to come on tv with some perfectly composed feel good tearjerker speech or even a great speech as if he would write as good as the likes of bob dylan or martin luther king junior his way to do that is to work even harder, to reach an even higher level at his craft that is his way to let us know he loves us that is his gift to us that is his way of humbling himself to us that is what he was born to do

So I don't really feel wacky.. but umm I really don't have much to say.. so.. I think that I am just going to say who matches were for this thing we did at school.. 1) Cody Swanson 2) Mason Vanderford 3) Nathan Altic 4) Chris McGowin 5) Aaron Stienkuhler 6) Bryan Hull (pomona) 7) Joseph Wehale (pomona) 8) Taylor Larsh (Pomona) 9) Michael Elston (Pomona) 10) Trey Wadkins The guys from Pomona I don't really know them.. and the guys from our school most of them are pretty cool.. Best Friend MAtches 1) Janessa Putney (pomona) 2) Kindal Ware So I hate Janessa Putney.. she is soo fucking stupid.. I just thought that I would say that.. but Kindal is pretty cool.. So that is all that I really have to talk about so..um I guess that I am going to go laters

So I'm in a really good mood today.. I'm sitting here in English and I actaully did really good on my test!! yep yep.. So Georgia is at Kays what a loser!! just kidding.. and I still think it was a touch down!! so anyways.. I wrote a parody for english class. and it was about shaq it was really funny!! yep yep. So Mrs. Lindsey just caught me on here.. and she started reading it lol... then she was asking me if I could on here.. and Mr.Walters normally doesnt care.. so.. umm yeah.. so I was going to say somethin but I don't remember what it was.. but ohh yeah I'm going to the movies on Saturday with Emily, Trey and Matt.. I'm excited! Tonight is queen of Courts I think that It is going to be fun.. I think that i am going to talk to Matt and see if he wants to go with me. Hmm.. I wonder what else we are goign to do in English today.. lol.. so I guess that I am going to go cause I'm kinda bored.. and i really dont have anything to say so Peace out Girl Scout!

okay.. so.. it is really early in the morning.. and I'm already ready for school..lol.. it is only 7:20 so.. I have a while before I have to go.. so.. I figured that I would update alittle.. I really don't have a whole lot to say except.. I went to work this weekend.. had a few weird dreams.. didn't do my homework.. but I'm sure Mr. Walters will let me do my homework instead of Photoshop...I watched the supper bowl lastnight.. well the commercials.. lol.. well.. I really don't have anything else to say.. and I need to check my emails.. so I'm gonnna go laters!!

Okay so.. I really don't have a whole lot to sya.. but umm I'm really bored.. but I was walking home for basketball practice.. are u ready for this.. well.. I was walking home.. and matt wright asked me to go make out with him.. did I kinda think that hmm maybe I should I need to suck up to him.. but did I nope.. I was.. like no.. cause I don't know.. lol.. well.. anyways.. there's a basketball game tomorrow.. at someother town..lol.. not really sure where.. but umm so this week has been sorta stress ful.. Emily is driving me nuts!!! so is georgia god(just kidding georgia.. alrighty well I'm going to go.. laters!1!