It's sad how afraid I am to even post on here. Nothing is private anymore. I don't care what strangers may stumble across this, but god forbid they read it. I just cleaned my entire huge 1000 sq. foot apartment and have dinner cooking for my 'boyfriend' to come home to. He will gulp down two plates then head on his merry way to his next destination. I'm happy he has classes tonight because now I can go visit a friend who happens to be another male. It will be a nice break from things. I know this friend really needs my company and ear tonight. But it's almost kind of messed up because there's always been sexual tension between us, and his 'love' is my boss. What the fuck am I doing? I can't help but like good people though, and want to be around them. Smashing Pumpkings just came on and now I feel good. Amazing what a song change can do.

It's practically a blizzard outside. I normally love winter, but my skin needs some sunshine.

Or some city lights. ; )

*Inserts NYC picture here*

Anyone mind telling me how to get a URL for a picture? I'm slightly technology inept.

Thanks!