i think im pretty much dead to the world. im starting to realize that other than my friends. no one really notices me. i walk in the halls pretty much alone. i only think about things. i dont really care about that though. i dont really meet guys as often as i'd like, but im sure that if i tried i might find someone that likes me back. im sure that if things with me and my mom were good. if we had the same relationship as her and my sister heather than maybe i'd have a little more positive self esteam. and im sure that if i was a little more outgoing that i would have a few more friends. i dont know. its just something that i've noticed. i havent really thought about it much. just that im not really seen at school and thats fine. i realize that there are a whole load of ppl at my school and hey. thats cool. but i keep thinking that maybe i need to branch out and be in different groups. well thats what my sister keeps telling me to do anyway. but i dont know. its just something that i thought that i might share.