i dont care who on gods fuckking creation reads this... you're the only boyy i think i've everr EVER felt this way about...this has gotten me soo worked up. i only think about you anymore. and i cant stop. and i know you live REALLLYYYYY far awayy but i think i could handle it. i've done OKAYY so far. only three different boyys since we've started talking... you said that you didnt want to hold me backk. and i would never want to hold you back. i know that since you live so far awayy that you probablyy alreaddy like someone else... im not the jealous type...but when you tell me that you're hanging out with you're best friend kaylee and stephen and stephen's girlfriend...it seems to me like you guys are just a big happy group. and i know they know you like me... and im sure they know i like you... but some how...i just keep getting this feeling that you're gonna fall for you bestfriend...which sucks. cuz she'd be more logical...seeing as how you're with her everydayy anywayy. and i only ever get you telling me that you miss me and "ily." nothing else...it saddens me... all i wanted was to be with you. and i cant wait to meet you... you have ABSOLUTELYY no idea... im so excited... i remember one of the first things you told me this week...you said that you had never thought that you could have liked someone soo much over myspace...but you said that you did...and then you told me that you loved me... and im onlyy hoping that that's true... cuz im lost with out you. you're the onlyy person that really truelyy makes me smile anymore... and not those fakke "im smiling but only cuz i dont want you to think im ignoring you" smiles...the actuall..."omg...you're amazing" smile...the one i havent smiled in forever... and i love that... you picked me up when i was down mondayy... i was soo bummed out about me and katie fighting...and you told me that you loved me until i finally smiled...and you told me that it would all blow over in the next few days...unfortunatelyyy...it hasnt... but you were there for me... you knew something was up from the moment you IMed me. and i find that completelyy amazing. you dont know how much i love you. and you'll probablyy never understand it. i feel so much for you...and i dont even know if you feel the same...but i love you bradley bear...you're my mr. AMAZING. =]] night sweetheart...i hope to talk to you at least on christmas night. ♥