x*Better*x

by xbaddayx
Listening to: 102.1 =-] lol
Feeling: torn
Well.. things with me and Limabean are better and im so glad.. i thought even if we talked about things .. that things wouldnt be the way they were before but i think they may just be doing so .. but i caught myself going to go mess with him and hit him and stuff and i just kinda hit him with my nb and i wuz like well im gonna walk away now.. and mann my dog just scratched the crap out of my face :( its horrible.. that damn doggy *tears* lol umm.. im not leaving until friday.. Laura and me were talking about leaving tomarrow but my dad didnt like that and plus her and shawn had made plans for friday and she 4got and I cant make her do that so were leaving friday after wards.. and yeah l8rr xx ♥!!
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i understand what you're saying. they are different but not as much as she makes it seem. things have gotten so serious... and things i say now affect her more than they would then. I feel like no matter what i do, she cant be happy. shes so bent on the past and doubt that theres no room for trusting me. *sigh* idk...=/
yea. but of course cant really blame anyone, b/c theres only one side of the story ur hearing. same w/ ppl im trying to talk to. i usually dnt talk to my friends at TD about it b/c i dnt think they'd listen much. besides shelby & shes suspended. I just wish mine showd as much as hers i guess. honestly.i wouldnt say my feelings are fading but it might get that way. b/c ive becoming tired of her being sad all the time. it wasnt always like that. :(
yes.. well thats the thing... i tell her i love her all the time. thats why im sooo confused. ever since i talked back to Abby she doesnt trust me. I tell her that i love her... she even has told me that she doesnt believe it. what makes her think i dont....is beyond me.
i dont talk about her that much... wheni talk about her i might tell lori that i talked to her and what we talked about... but i dont talk to her that much.. n shes 1 of my best friends. that last comment really made me cry. gawd. cuz i am.. i swear im trying to show her, tell her...anything i can.

im doing the notebook for her & im gona put all my effort into it. & im gona buy & scrap book & put "us" things in it. the days we spend 2gether.