Well.. I went to Brent's today and 'stole' his shirt.. even tho he gave it to me.. I say I stole it. And it was cool to get away from home and hanging out with someone cool who can make me laugh and get my mind off of shit.. but towards the end .. Chris came flooding back into my thoughts like he always seems to. Lori and I are gonna go see him on Monday if I stay over on Sunday... I'm kinda nervous.. but I want to do it.. I mean things with me and him just suck right now and even if things don't get ANY better from this then at least it was better than just sitting at home wanting things to change themselves.. and they obviously wont so I mean.. what can it hurt?.. I just am scared that I'm going to break down in front of him.. and thats the main thing that I do not want to happen. But umm... I smell like cigarettes.. and my dad thought it was because I smoked alot.. but I didn't only one :]] lol.. damn this CD keeps skipping grrrrrroarrr lol.. well I'm off for now.. back to myspace :]] lol.. l8rr xx♥ [♥I Miss You♥]