Bryan just deleted my whole thing i had pretty much a whole page of me ranting on about how i hate people.What an ass lol.. Butt he's cool shit. For all those Juggalos out there we need some praying done there's a juggalo in need okay so pray thanx! his name is matt and he tore is spin skatebording. Yesterday was one of the worse days of my life inculding this.. And i just relized why im so pissed off hah yeah pretty funny i thought so....Yeah so anyways im after at school just hanging out in the computer place.. yes computer place, i rufuse to give it a name.lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala i think i should be cheaked into a mental place.. lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalallalalalala.........................

Ramdonme thoughts... I knew tonight was the night but it didnt happen. I said i have feelings for you and i meant it. IM sorry if i hurt you it wasn't my intention. Promies me you'll never forgive me. Promise me you'll never forget. Tell me you know that was the night. Let me fade in to your memory. Lett me fade...... copy right 3/19/06 Lyndsey Charron

I had learned something very important today from someone i love very much. Never rush into sex. There are so many horriable things that can happen. Even though your parents might just say they that they really do mean it. You could end up haveing to marry someone who treats you very badly, and be abused and what not. Imagen going threw that. Somone telling you what you can and can not do. Next time you think about haveing sex think, "Is this the life I want?"

yeah so im feeling balh lol well im here in my school libary once again but this time school is done and my sister need to use the computers be4 she went to work so thats why im here and then im helping them video tape a thing well i gtg ttyl

Im in my school libary right now what joy lol im sitting next to Bryan the biggest loser i know no im just kidding he's a pretty cool kid hope i never wrote about him that would be just plain creepie!! lol........ I need to get a live journal hmm someone tell me how!! lol. Well anywyas my school sux we can't like go on any websites im suprized it lett me go on thhis it took me like 10=15 mins to rmeber my password lol cuz i haven't up dated recently.. Well here's a quick up date boyfriend is in rehab for about 6 months ooh the :beeping: (can't swear teachers!!!) joy!!!! butt ooh well my freshman frolice is comeing up and no ones asked me but ooh well.. i dyed my hair purple lol...yeah im pretty cool.Did you know you can't eat or drink in the chs libary what bull crap huh!? oooh well this school is a pice of crap i can't wait to leave!!!!!!!!!............+.52+52 FUH FREAK ugh gtg bye blah im back yeah so i was just like why don't i open it hmm so i just found out brayn thinks im annyoing what joy.. Im in here for math if u were wondering hah... hmm i told him not talk to me what fucking fun hah he just told me to get over myself wot woot ooh yeah my self esteamness is going up so much!!! yeah right. don't you just love hearing things like that from your so called "friends" yeah .............................. But life goes on!... My math teacher is like a botox queen hah shes all like ahhhh blahhh blahh i hate her

Ok for my current mood im sadd dazed and confussed.. Life's a bitch but we all know that.. And everyone feels use once and awhile or like a dum fuck!! yeah i feel like a dum fuck with no fucking mind, and i can't controll that right now i really just want to throw some shyt and break it..BUt then i know its my fault that i lett this shyt happen to me cuz im a dum fucking idiot who gets throwen to the side for the "pretty" girl.. Im not try to sound conceided now but i do think im pretty im not the hottest there is around but i don't think im the uglest...I know we all feel this way i really do. But i don't know why we make ourselfs try so hard and then we end up feeling like shit lower then shit like your an non exzisting person.. who's all by there selfs in a cornner shivering and crying and asking them self the same old bullshyt qustion "how did this happen,why did i let this happen."

Everything just been really hard for me the pass month its just all confuseing and school started up again i guess i like it..It takes my mind of of thigns...Thats a good thing... Step dad is stilla toattly ass he's just makeing things worse i really dislike him...I can't wait till im 18 and out of this shit whole...My parents have acussed me of smokeing cigarest but my Step father has acussed me of smokeing pott which wasn't true at all and now won't lett me doa single thing.. I don't understand why everything i do gose threw him he has no part of my life and it is just wrong for him to make decstion that effected my life..For instines this weekend i am going to the movie with my friends danielle and gina and my step father (i don't even kno why i call him that it should just be like the man that my mother was cheating on with my Father) said i don't think thats a good idea when my mother was perfectedly fine with it and just wanted to mett gina...I just don't understand it and i think it's awhole lot of bullshyt... I know running away isnt the answere but the only time i feel completly free is when im not here...I would still go to school just not be here for awhile i think it would do good for me....Well i just need some a place to put my thoughts...

Tonight me and my sis went to wendy's after i babysat it was fun we talked about alot of things that she didn't kno about me. We alse talked about how much our mother was being total insane which is uasll but throw her keys at me was just uncalled for if you kno what i mean..Well i guess everyone has there problems with there family...I don't kno what i would do with out my sister seh's leaveing for collage (sry cant spell very good) in a year but we get to spend one year of school together she'll be a seinor and i'll be a freshman.. She already told me i could bunk with her and stuff :) that's going to be fun im going to turn into a even more bad kid im guessing... Wonder if my mom will even notice probly not.. I'll give you an examaple me and my friend Krissy where sitting outside in the middle of the night and we told her we where out there and she had no idea where we where cuz my sister asked her and she was like i think there down stairs i mean god she can be so dum sometimes....But some kid's probly have it alot worse then me but this is me not them lol that might sound a lil mean but i mean god i have to live with this INSANE woman everyday till my 18th birthday which is 4 years away...But letts talk about happy things i got a new pair of earings and sunglass' today im obssed i guess you could say i have like 5 pairs..I went to savers a few day's ago with my grandmother and got this Buitiful velt dress its so nice its short and red kinda hard to explain maybe one day i'll putt a pic of it on... Im looking so forward to tomrrow im going for a fitting to be in a fashion show with ym friend krissy heh its going to be so much fun even tho any avrage joe can sgin up butt you get a free outfit out of it and they do your makeup and all that good stuff im so excited...

i haven't done anything today woke up at like 2 ate dinner at like 4 and here i am now i wonder if im babysitting tonight hmm i hope tomrrow will be funn cumberland fest ya kno.. Todays been a werid day i dont know why i just feel so outt of it and unloved ever have those days? or is it just becuase im insane? maybe i should go toa shrink or something.. but i dont know...hmmz.. I don't really know what to say.. i guess i could tell you how im feeling and i feel alone unloved and lost no idea why but that's just my feeling today..But so on...

Its been along time i don't really think things have changed me and danielle are still best friends.. Next year im going to be a freshman ooh joy that really is going to sux and i might be moveing sureing my freshman year ugh parents can be asswhole's at times... But besides that im fine im just ennjoying live contineu you know? Well for now i like liveing in this fucked up world.. But i cant wait till bush dies he turned me in to an ANcryest...If you don't kno what that means it means you don't belive in any goverment.. WHich i don't so hmm....

nothing really to say just thought i put something in here scince its been awhile but i dont know

Hmm dont know what to say beside my whole weekend sucked dam people.lolDont know really what to say hmm. have you people ever watch the wizzard of oz with it muct with pink floys playing in the back hah awsome as all hell.. U start it at like the 2nd roar

Sry havent written in here in awhile nothing really to say plus i havent been on the computer.Lifes blah like always.But theres one good thing the love of my life <33ricky<33 I've fallin in love for the first time i get lost when im with him... Thanx carebear to bring me to see him i was shakeing heh Im such a dork..:(....He stole my phone lol.. "Im not i a dork im not like going to hug him and runaway"nigi "hey i didnt runaway i walked away"me I cant help it that im so in love i dont know what to do. Every time i close my eyes i see his face..<333 "Im so in love i think i'll never let go" me Every time i let go im alone i feel so safe when im with him.. OK thast engouh heartach....My friends stalk me thanx guys i love how you only stalk me when im with a guy i feel like u want to make sure im ok . thats so cute..I hope these feelings never go away

Don't know what to really say my day started off really bad but it turned out all good in the end.I ended up hanging out with my friend Jay and his cuzinz it was really fun we all had a blust then i came home ugh.But at least no ones home now and im all by myself yay lol. Still thinking about running away where should i go??? and if i do wha shouldi bring see these are tuff qustions if u have any advice tell me plz thanx. I hope i move in with my dad this summer

Life is juat what it is we all want to change ours in anyways possiable and some just want it to end. But thats all drama. So lets move on..... oooh well lets talk about boys lol.. I've liked you for the longest time it just makes me wonder why you dont relize... i guess your to wraped up. To even take a 2nd look at me. ~I still want to run~

I just want to leave my house and my step dad i hate him so much and im sure he hates me to. I just want to runaway i try talking to my mom about him but she just doesnt listen to me and i dont know what to do i want to leave but where should i go. And where can i go were he wont find me i want to run far away. I would rather die then spend one more day here with him. I would do anything to leave.

Dont really want to talk becuase my sister just ran way and i dont know what to do with my self now. I only wish i could do the same as her just ran away from the same thing as her and i know if i did they come and take me right back so im cuaght

Me"MIss a dlaily do you think thats slutty" Her:"balnk" Me:"Dose my butt look good in these." Her:" You have not butt" Me:"yes i do i just forgot to put my butt plants in" HAHAH me and kayla were to cool for boyfriends and school. Fun fun fun. HAt day!! Kayal: that hat fits u so well. Lyndsey me: i know yay. Krista if your reading this leave mikes hair alone!! you custy ass whore!! I hope you leave!!(die) MIke if your reading this im sry i love you but i dont like you dateing her.:( Kayla stop cheating in ccd thast not good as mike says "you can cheat in the god school but you cant cheat in history." SO long we have dance well be back later i guess MY bus driver is mean lol

I'm tierd umm bed sounds good about now. Today we found out about our semi dance woot woot (i guess im just going for free food lmao)PLus i want a dress. Well pretty much everyone has a boyfriend at our school or a love connection but not my friends and i were loners j/k were really not idk what you would call us alot of people think were stoners which we take as a complment.lol. OoOh well i dont think anyone likes me in my school or at least no one i like so i have no clue fi im going to have a date to it.And the boreing part is you cant come with anyone from another school ugh i think that sux. So much for bringing your cuzin lol... Welll if worse comes to worse im not going or im going with my friends and im going to be a pimpet for the night woot woot. Yeah that sounds like funn. Well i will keep ya posted

I dont know what to say but so many people need to stop saying there going to commet sucicde its getting me grr.I hate how assinte teachers think they know everything.Yea i got in troble in away.I have to call my resouce teacher i love how i call my teachers lol.Hah i just got ooff the phone with my teacher heh i love her shes so nice i get to be a dum blonde tommrrow lmao