I am currently laying in bed, been awake since 9:30 but its dark and i have nothing to do so i am not getting up yet. I have been thinking about matt a lot. I really like him, but what im most mad about isnt that he just stopped talking to me or whatever, im mad that I liked him so much, and i fell for him, and now look at me. I'm pathetic. He obviously expected me to go to florida and that would be that. but nope, I stayed here, and he doesnt want to get attatched. well too fucking late for that. I hate that I like him so much. hes so fucking perfect. Usually i would just focus on his flaws and then i get over him but he has very few. The fist being that he wont talk to me. thats kinda a problem. The second, he talks to his ex. which could have a lot to do with it. And thats it. Thats all ive got. So do I keep pursuing him? leave it at neutral.. we can be friends? ignore him (which will be terribly difficult for me)? or make him jealous? I dont want to hurt him, but i want to make him jealous because im so mad at him. The biggest problem with that is i have no one to make him jealous with. So i would have to just look extra pretty, fun, and cool around him..aka be myself. It was just so perfect being with him for that one week. I wish I had the balls to talk to him. I think i will need to discuss this matter thoroughly with Lauren and Diane and get the opinions. Lauren knows him so she will share the approach method, but Diane will tell me what to do. Bahhhh why is he so perfect? I planned our wedding this morning. It was beautiful and amazing. Shit I really fell for this boy. 11:28:50