I feel like such a looser. Homecomings on the 13th && I still dont have a date or anything. I'm not even sure if I'm going to go anymore. I was thinking that if I couldn't find a date, i could ask my neighbor/bestfriend nathan if he could take me, like just as a friend or w/e. b/c he doesnt have anyone to go with either. But i'm still hoping raymond asks me. Even though lately things have been very weird. Like, he has a girlfriend who treats him like shit, but he doesnt want to break up with her because he doesnt want to be alone, but he doesnt realise that he wouldnt be alone, he'd have me. && i mean, he knows i like him, && he likes me. Everytime he is about to break up with his girlfriend, he acts like this. The other day when we signed off aim, he said "i love you ashley, more than you'll ever know". && i know he means it, dont ask how, but i do. I dont know, maybe hes just scared to be in another relationship, because all the ones hes been in, his girlfriend has treated him like crap. lgkahjdfklja idk. its so freaking confusing. i dont know what he wants from me. i like him sooo much. like, you wouldnt belive. i just wish he would decide what he wants from me && then either ask me out or stop leading me on. klaghdsofjdklhlkjd. i guess i'll post more later. my mom wants me to get off <3